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Character name: Slick (formerly Ticky Mikk)
Fandom: D. Gray-man
Age: 27ish
Appearance: Tall, white, dark brown curly hair that goes to a bit over his shoulders, blue eyes. Has a large scar bisecting his torso, and a couple more on his right arm. Is very attractive.
Canon point: Most recent dgm canon + Sabra game canon.
Cause of Death: This is difficult because, aside from main players in canon, Ticky is virtually impossible to kill. I was going to say the Earl killed him for being a traitor, or perhaps another Noah, but per your rules... Would it be all right if I say he doesn't remember, and let him just make wild assumptions? (Ultimately, it doesn't matter to him much).
Abilities: Please note that this are Ticky's abilities AFTER he destroyed his Noah:
-Ability to choose! He can choose to touch whatever he wishes, which is to say, he can also choose to NOT touch whatever he wishes. Ticky uses this ability to do funfun things like reach into people's chests and pull out their hearts, or to walk on air, create vacuums in the atmosphere... The only limit on what he can reject is Innocence, or basically, God Matter. It specifically has to be divine material, not a holy or blessed object. He can use this power indefinitely and it takes no effort, so this is why I say he is usually impossible to kill.
-Ability to control his darkness. This is a thing he does often as a kind of attack/defense against Innocence. It doesn't appear to have a lot of limits (he can make tentacles, a shell around his body, use it as a laser blast..) however, with his Noah dead he can only use his own darkness, which is considerably weaker.
His other canon abilities have been lost, as I assuming the Tease won't come with him.
Background:
Ticky's actual canon background is still a bit blurry, however, due to the nature of the game I apped him at previously, I had to headcanon a lot of his background. I tried to still keep things fairly rough and flexible, BUT I will be answering this section with both canon and the headcanon I included. The parts that are headcanon are basically everything until he joined the Noah, including how he joined the Noah and how joining the Noah affected him. That said, Ticky's general background (was a harmless, uneducated, street savvy hobo until ten years ago and then got picked up by the Noah after his Noah awoke) is all stated in canon or heavily implied.
Ticky was born in Portugal and doesn't remember having any parents, his earliest memories are at an orphanage that he ran away from at a pretty young age to live on the streets and fend for himself. He fell in and out of various child street gangs, and learned to both cherish the company of others and rely on himself. Still, his childhood was really pretty awful, and Ticky's cleverness was not always clever enough, he ended up in crappy situations like rape, starvation, and stabbing. However, because he didn't really know a better life, he grew up to actually love what he had. He made friends, learned to survive, and was never chained down by anything.
In Ticky's teens, his Noah awoke. It was excruciatingly painful and when it was over he had a... not a voice, exactly, but a memory/feeling/identity in his head that loved/hated humanity and was obsessed with pleasure. It also took pleasure in some very sadistic things, so while Ticky's enjoyment of say, smoking, playing cards, or hanging out with friends was enhanced, so was his enjoyment of beating the shit out of people, having power over them, and torturing them. This desire to hurt/inability to not enjoy it, combined with the fact that Ticky was picked up by the Noah, who became his first and only family and actively encouraged him to listen to the Noah, resulted in Ticky accepting his fate as a Noah, much as he had previously accepted his fate as a homeless vagabond. He took the same overall philosophy of enjoying what you have, making the best of it, and fell full tilt into crazy ass villainy.
While he'd never been the most moral person, he was still a pretty decent guy until all of the Noah stuff happened. And yet, a part of him was still unwilling to let go of his old life, perhaps couldn't let it go because his life as a semi-decent thieving hobo gave him pleasure, so he divided himself. In his 'white mode' he continued to play the role of a strangely likeable, cheating, scruffy vagabond, and by utilizing the power of the Noah, he could take on a 'black' form, during which he played the role of a young lord, member of the prestigious Camelot household, charmer of rich young ladies, and also full time villain for the Noah who rips people's hearts out for lulz.
The Noah are a world destroying family who are possessed and empowered by the memories of the Biblical Noah, but unlike how the story is told in the Bible, Noah appears to hate God and the Noah family has been seeking the destruction of God (and presumably the human race) since the flood. The Noah fight the Black Order, a secret branch of the Vatican which exists to gather divine material called Innocence, and train exorcists to use it as a weapon to fight off the Noah. However, the Black Order has been gradually losing, and the Noah often don't even take them seriously. Ticky is arguably the most actively dangerous member of the family, as he kills the highest number of exorcists in canon. Despite this, he is also arguably the least invested in the battle itself. He is basically killing people for fun and playing out his role because it's the hand he was dealt (and also he likes his family and is crazy).
Over the course of canon, Ticky attempts to murder Allen Walker, the hero, and ultimately fails because you can't kill the protag. He later loses to Allen, and Allen tries to cut his Noah out of him. There is a very key moment where Ticky accepts his fate; much as he accepted being homeless, then accepted being a Noah, he also accepts that Allen will destroy him. However, Allen's attack is insufficient, and the Noah awakes and possesses Ticky's body and wrecks havoc until an even stronger exorcist can KO him.
After that, Ticky is tormented by the wound that Allen left him, and it gradually is revealed that Ticky looks identical to the Fourteenth, the Noah that possesses Allen Walker. Ticky also develops a fondness for Allen, either because of their multiple connections (both are card cheating homeless hobos possessed by Noah and thrown to opposite sides of a holy war they don't really care about but were dragged into by family), or because Allen himself is family, or because Ticky has some unknown connection to the Fourteenth. Either way, he risks his life to save Allen, and then lets Allen go after smacking him around with a dose of bald-faced reality.
Personality: Ticky is a really very simple person in very complex packaging. All you need to do to understand him is to realize that he was, most of his life, a wayward homeless boy who saw the world in a black and white way and accepted its flaws. He was not particularly bad, or particularly good, and he decided to enjoy what he enjoyed and not worry about the details. Then something inside him awoke -- quite literally! -- and built upon his vision of reality. The flaws he had accepted were really so much worse, but he had also already accepted them! Humanity was dirty and filthy and unforgivable, but he is a part of humanity. He loved and hated them for their hypocrisy, unreliability, and short sightedness. Every terrible thing he wanted to do, that he suddenly took pleasure in doing, was already justified because he himself is human, and this is what humanity does.
Now, Ticky is a clever and self aware sort of person. His Noah did not turn him completely crazy in an instant, it wore him down. Eventually, Ticky ended up living two lives, both to protect his happiness and his sanity. Thus, he appears as a person with two personalities: in his white life he is a carefree, snarky, yet caring homeless guy who really just wants to live with his friends and make enough money to survive. In his black life, he lives with his family, both fighting in the war and murdering people for fun, and keeping up a front as a charming, eligible young lord. He is smart enough that he learned how to play the part of nobility, he cleans up quite well, and everyone buys it. But it's not his heart: he complains about having to woo women or go to parties, and is usually pretty quick to roll up his collars or let down his hair. He has enough vanity that he likes looking pretty, but he's also comfortable enough that he is probably even happier just hoboing it up.
Anyway, the key here is that Ticky does NOT have split personalities, or identities. He simply is one man who chose to live two different lives in two radically different ways. They are both truly him, though they conflict heavily, and thus his insanity. He knows he can't sustain it forever, and that eventually his darkness will swallow up his light and he will well and truly crack and never look back. But he is crazy, so if a part of him dreads that day, a part of him is also excited about it. A part of him knows that he would genuinely enjoy murdering the people he loves best. He does not admit to being crazy, but inside he knows that's what has happened.
The only problem is? Ticky is a person who accepts fate, he doesn't fight it. If it is the hand he was dealt, he can be anything: homeless street brat, a charming lord, or a crazed and sadistic world destructive villain. No matter how much power he has, and he has quite a lot, he doesn't believe he has the power to choose his own fate. At the same time, he believes he has chosen. This is another 'Ticky believes two conflicting things that makes him crazier' point. But basically: he accepts responsibility for his actions. Even though he will explain away, in a reasonable tone of voice why it made perfect sense for him to rip out your best friend's heart, he doesn't think he is a good guy, he doesn't think he is forgivable, he doesn't use his inhumanity or his hopeless situation to justify his sins. Unlike most of the other Noah, who act as if they are of a different race, and are part of a chosen holy mission, Ticky is well aware they are bad guys doing bad things and he accepts it and is okay with it. At the same time... Ticky, in his heart of hearts, isn't a bad guy. So the fact that he plays that role so casually is a result of the fact that he feels powerless to choose what he is. A crazy ass Noah awoke in him and drastically changed him, he was slotted into the villain side of things, and that's just how it is. Whatever, he's going to have fun with it.
In general interaction, Ticky can slide between derpy, bored, and extremely chill, to straight backed, slick and charming, to absolutely fucking sadistically psychotic all at the drop of a hat. However, his preferred mode is definitely casual and ironic. He doesn't get excited easily, his sense of humor is very dry, his personality is generally amicable, and his emotional spectrum tends to cap at 'annoyed' and 'amused' respectively. That is until he starts doing something he genuinely enjoys, like murdering people, and then he can get very excited and grandiose and sometimes hysterical.
Old Game Info: I apped Ticky at an RP called Sabra la Tau and played him there for roughly two years. Sabra is an RP where all characters start as amnesiacs, and regain their memories through playing games, or in Ticky's case, by serving the amoral 'Judges' who created the games and force the amnesiacs into torturously awful scenarios to regain their memories.
Ticky first arrived on one of the normal teams, and was an ordinary blank, and received the name Slick. He kept that name his entire time there, and it is now how he will introduce himself. Later, when the Judges created a black team called Ophiuchus and filled it with people who would serve them instead of play in games, he switched sides for the creature comforts and general call to be a douchebag.
Because the source of Ticky's insanity was a 'memory' itself, the Noah was not present in Slick's mind for a while, and this allowed him to establish friendships before he became a crazy sadist. Also, since he got the Noah (and his insanity) back in pieces, his support group helped him stay somewhat saneish, and he decided to divorce from the Noah cause (which he never particularly cared about himself), and accepted that the exorcists in Sabra were going to kill his family, and him as well if he didn't take his fate into his own hands.
The prize for 'winning' Sabra la Tau is a wish granted by the Judges. There were many exorcists in Sabra and Slick was the only member of the opposing side. Even if he did wish to destroy humanity, or the Black Order, or do something else suitably villainous, it would have been undone by the dominant number of good guys. And really, Slick never actually wanted to be evil, he just wanted to enjoy 'pleasure', and the Noah made his sense of pleasure rather sadistic. Prior to Sabra, Ticky hated humanity as much as he loved them. He lived a difficult life and was privy to the hypocrisies in humanity. It's not that he was a revolutionary or a higher minded individual, he was just aware that humans were as dirty as the Noah, and so to him it didn't seem like much of a betrayal to join the 'bad guys'. Due to the way he regained memories in Sabra, Slick never fully regained his love OR his hate for humanity, and he was much more focused on his individual relationships and not losing them, as they were his primary source of pleasure. He loved a fellow Ophiuchus named River (TYL!Yamamoto), and Allen Walker, both of whom got to him before his insanity started to settle in, and thus he remained pretty dedicated to them even after he began to lose his mind again.
Ultimately, thanks to the tireless good influences of those around him, Slick used his wish to kill his Noah, but retain his Noah's abilities. He did not wish to undo the effect the Noah had on him, so he still has a dark nature, is pretty sociopathic, a sadist, and is just in general not very mentally stable. But he doesn't have the Noah constantly urging him to be crazier, and he is aware of his own insanity enough to control it if he feels so inclined.
Outward personality wise, Slick is a dry, sardonic, subdued sort of derp. He enjoys harassing people mildly, and often gets caught up in the irony of a situation, but overall he is very chill, and unless he is being sadistic, it's pretty hard to get a strong emotional reaction out of him. He has a very 'seen it all' sort of feel to him, only instead of appearing wise and worldly he just comes off as jaded and bored. He enjoys simple pleasures, like smoking, sex, cards, but everything is a little washed out for him after the high-octane obsessively powerful pleasure of the Noah. The result is that his world is just a little too monochrome now, and it's difficult for him to get invested in much.
On top of that, Slick is very prone to accepting fate. Even after having made his own choices in life (cleaning up his act a bit, killing his Noah), at his core he still feels powerless to determine his own path, and he mostly only does it because the people who love him bother him until he makes good life choices. Which means he sometimes still makes bad life choices, and shrugs it off because whatever, that’s his nature.
Slick is still the great actor that Ticky was, but he no longer brings it out much. Outside of general moodiness, his personality and speech patterns are pretty consistent. He no longer lives a white or black life. Slick has jumbled it all together and more-or-less 'grown up' from that stage of his life, and though the idea is still important to him in memory, it doesn't influence his day-to-day life, and he no longer sees the world in a dichotomy of white and black.
Overall, Slick is even more self aware than Ticky was, as is the result of regaining memories of his insanity while still being sane, and then slowly finding himself going crazy in fractions. He has once again lost most of his sense of morality, though he is still aware that 'bad' and 'good' exist for other people, it's no longer something he will let himself desire, as he doesn't really think he can manage it. A selfish life is much more comfortable to him, though he does consider keeping his friends happy a 'selfish pleasure'. That said, he is still a sadist, and still kind of obsessed with pleasure, so it's pretty easy for him to slide into being a dick, sometimes even abusive, towards those he loves. Part of it is because he doesn't see a problem with threatening to rip out someone's heart if he has no real intention of doing it, and part of it is that he fully realizes that is totally insane he just doesn't always care while he's doing it.
That said, Slick DID choose to abandon the Noah, and did in a way choose to be a 'good guy'. He didn't choose to be 'not crazy' though, so the lines blur. But he would probably help someone in need (and probably also rip the heart out of whoever put them in need to begin with), he probably won't kill anyone who hasn't done anything to deserve it. He will make a genuine effort to live a more-or-less not villainous life, mostly because he decided to/feels like that is his new ‘future’ and he gets oddly dedicated to these ideas.
A rather large change is that his feelings on humanity are no longer a huge sticking point in his character, and he isn’t really invested in humanity as a whole, and mostly cares about his individual relationships. He has also admitted to himself that he is crazy, and actively stays aware of it.
But finally, probably the biggest change is simply the paths they walk. Ticky was headed toward apocalypse, family loyalty, deeper insanity, and death. Slick is on the road to self satisfaction, world saving, less insanity, and a future. (Orr at least he was until he died and now he's back in a silly game...)
Important Sabra Relationships!:
Allen Walker - bff, lover, boyfriend, they had a complex and non-monogamous thing going on. They became friends early on due to the fact that without memories they had pretty similar outlooks on things, and then they both found out they had Noah and could look forward to going crazy, before they realized they were also enemies. In the end Allen was a huge support in Slick maintaining as much of his sanity as he did, however, because of the level of Slick's feelings for him, he also caused several of the cracks in Slick's sanity.
Yamamoto Takeshi (TYL Reborn, named River) - River and Slick were partners on Ophiuchus, meaning they were both midbosses together! After River managing to poke Slick during a particular vulnerable time (I guess I am going to go crazy and start enjoy torturing people, NO I DON'T CARE THAT'S FINE, IT'S COOL, WHATEVER) they became friends and fuck buddies and eventually something more serious than that. River was actually probably the biggest cornerstone to Slick's everything, as UNLIKE Allen Walker, he was pretty much nothing but caring and supportive and accepting and actually unconditional love is pretty great.
Pikachu (...Pokemon) - ...Slick loved Pikachu. He peeled oranges for him and Pikachu nodded seriously while Slick bitched about things, it was a great relationship.
Souma Rin (Fruits Basket) - Slick became very fond of her after he had to take her eyeballs out once and she handled it remarkably well.
Othar (Girl Genius) - One of Slick's earliest relationships. Othar was totally crazy but very caring and supportive and manly and badass and Slick kind of idol worshipped him early on, and later was just extremely fond of him.
Hirohiko (Tenjou Tenge) - A blind member of Ophiuchus who showed up pretty late. Ticky was fond of him and they had an abusive sort of friendship.
Those are the relationships he cares about, there are many others that mostly amounted to 'I picked on them because it was funny'. He would remember their faces, but not their names, or really anything about them other than what they are afraid of.
Was entrance willingly or by force?: Willing... after a lot of sardonic bitchery.
Outside item: A deck of cards.
IC:
P.I
1st Person Sample: [n..note. Ticky would probably EVENTUALLY figure out how to use a text based client. if someone punched him to. or if he was really bored. but for a while he will be super technologically fail. this is an example of a first post...]
what the hell is this
who would actually talk this way
let me guess youre all afraid of seeing each other and losing your precious cards
so this is how you hide? but it seems pretty boring
why dont you just have a nice fight or stay in the safe zones if your that worried
this is a game so at least have some fun
you are already dead anyway whats there to worry about?
P.II
IC Character Survey:
1. Do you have any nicknames, street names, titles, or aliases?
Plenty, but does it really matter now? The only name you need is the one I've given you.
2. What is your full birth name?
Didn't we just go over this? And I doubt I ever have one, you have to have people who care enough to name you for a thing like that.
3. Where do you live?
Here and there. I'm not picky about that sort of thing. A comfortable alleyway is enough for me.
4. Give a two or three word description of yourself.
A bad man.
5. What do you perceive as your greatest strength?
Well... the fact that nothing can touch me unless I allow it to is certainly a boon.
6. What do you perceive as your greatest weakness?
Hmmm... that's a little hard to say. I suppose the obvious answer is 'Innocence', since it can still kill me easier than most things. But I have plenty of flaws, if that's what you're looking for. Still, it's better if you figure it out yourself, you don't want everything to be too easy, do you?
7. Do you have any dreams or ambitions? What are they? If not, why?
I think I've out grown that sort of thing.
8. How would you like to be remembered after your death?
What a silly question. If I am remembered at all it should be as the villain I was, but honestly, most people have their heads so far up their asses they were never even aware. It's fine to be forgotten.
9. If your features were to be destroyed beyond recognition, is there any other way of identifying your body?
...Well. I have some scars.
10. Do you, or did you, have any role models?
...
It's a bit hard to remember that far.
11. How do you generally treat others?
I suppose I'm a jerk. But from me, that is being treated quite well, so they should probably be grateful.
12. Do you trust easily (perhaps too easily) or not?
Worrying about trust or not is for people who worry about the outcomes. I understand, I was there once. But it's not a concern of mine any longer.
13. Do you act differently than you feel (concealing your true thoughts)?
Wouldn't the answer be 'no' either way?
14. What habits would you find most annoying in friends?
Preaching.
15. How do others typically react to you? Why, in your opinion, do they act that way?
That really depends, you know. Obviously people react based on what they see, so it all comes down to what side you show them. I guess you can say people usually react however I expect them to.
16. Do you like food mild or heavily spiced?
I don't care much, as long as it's food.
17. Are there any specific foodstuffs that you find disgusting or refuse to eat?
No. A wealthy man's dog scraps is the poor man's feast, after all.
18. If you have a favorite scent, what is it?
...smoke...?
19. Do you believe in god(s) or not?
Yes. And in my experience they aren't terribly different from humans.
20. Can you kill?
Of course.
-- APP END --
Name: Aviy
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IC INFO:
Character name: Slick (formerly Ticky Mikk)
Fandom: D. Gray-man
Age: 27ish
Appearance: Tall, white, dark brown curly hair that goes to a bit over his shoulders, blue eyes. Has a large scar bisecting his torso, and a couple more on his right arm. Is very attractive.
Canon point: Most recent dgm canon + Sabra game canon.
Cause of Death: This is difficult because, aside from main players in canon, Ticky is virtually impossible to kill. I was going to say the Earl killed him for being a traitor, or perhaps another Noah, but per your rules... Would it be all right if I say he doesn't remember, and let him just make wild assumptions? (Ultimately, it doesn't matter to him much).
Abilities: Please note that this are Ticky's abilities AFTER he destroyed his Noah:
-Ability to choose! He can choose to touch whatever he wishes, which is to say, he can also choose to NOT touch whatever he wishes. Ticky uses this ability to do funfun things like reach into people's chests and pull out their hearts, or to walk on air, create vacuums in the atmosphere... The only limit on what he can reject is Innocence, or basically, God Matter. It specifically has to be divine material, not a holy or blessed object. He can use this power indefinitely and it takes no effort, so this is why I say he is usually impossible to kill.
-Ability to control his darkness. This is a thing he does often as a kind of attack/defense against Innocence. It doesn't appear to have a lot of limits (he can make tentacles, a shell around his body, use it as a laser blast..) however, with his Noah dead he can only use his own darkness, which is considerably weaker.
His other canon abilities have been lost, as I assuming the Tease won't come with him.
Background:
Ticky's actual canon background is still a bit blurry, however, due to the nature of the game I apped him at previously, I had to headcanon a lot of his background. I tried to still keep things fairly rough and flexible, BUT I will be answering this section with both canon and the headcanon I included. The parts that are headcanon are basically everything until he joined the Noah, including how he joined the Noah and how joining the Noah affected him. That said, Ticky's general background (was a harmless, uneducated, street savvy hobo until ten years ago and then got picked up by the Noah after his Noah awoke) is all stated in canon or heavily implied.
Ticky was born in Portugal and doesn't remember having any parents, his earliest memories are at an orphanage that he ran away from at a pretty young age to live on the streets and fend for himself. He fell in and out of various child street gangs, and learned to both cherish the company of others and rely on himself. Still, his childhood was really pretty awful, and Ticky's cleverness was not always clever enough, he ended up in crappy situations like rape, starvation, and stabbing. However, because he didn't really know a better life, he grew up to actually love what he had. He made friends, learned to survive, and was never chained down by anything.
In Ticky's teens, his Noah awoke. It was excruciatingly painful and when it was over he had a... not a voice, exactly, but a memory/feeling/identity in his head that loved/hated humanity and was obsessed with pleasure. It also took pleasure in some very sadistic things, so while Ticky's enjoyment of say, smoking, playing cards, or hanging out with friends was enhanced, so was his enjoyment of beating the shit out of people, having power over them, and torturing them. This desire to hurt/inability to not enjoy it, combined with the fact that Ticky was picked up by the Noah, who became his first and only family and actively encouraged him to listen to the Noah, resulted in Ticky accepting his fate as a Noah, much as he had previously accepted his fate as a homeless vagabond. He took the same overall philosophy of enjoying what you have, making the best of it, and fell full tilt into crazy ass villainy.
While he'd never been the most moral person, he was still a pretty decent guy until all of the Noah stuff happened. And yet, a part of him was still unwilling to let go of his old life, perhaps couldn't let it go because his life as a semi-decent thieving hobo gave him pleasure, so he divided himself. In his 'white mode' he continued to play the role of a strangely likeable, cheating, scruffy vagabond, and by utilizing the power of the Noah, he could take on a 'black' form, during which he played the role of a young lord, member of the prestigious Camelot household, charmer of rich young ladies, and also full time villain for the Noah who rips people's hearts out for lulz.
The Noah are a world destroying family who are possessed and empowered by the memories of the Biblical Noah, but unlike how the story is told in the Bible, Noah appears to hate God and the Noah family has been seeking the destruction of God (and presumably the human race) since the flood. The Noah fight the Black Order, a secret branch of the Vatican which exists to gather divine material called Innocence, and train exorcists to use it as a weapon to fight off the Noah. However, the Black Order has been gradually losing, and the Noah often don't even take them seriously. Ticky is arguably the most actively dangerous member of the family, as he kills the highest number of exorcists in canon. Despite this, he is also arguably the least invested in the battle itself. He is basically killing people for fun and playing out his role because it's the hand he was dealt (and also he likes his family and is crazy).
Over the course of canon, Ticky attempts to murder Allen Walker, the hero, and ultimately fails because you can't kill the protag. He later loses to Allen, and Allen tries to cut his Noah out of him. There is a very key moment where Ticky accepts his fate; much as he accepted being homeless, then accepted being a Noah, he also accepts that Allen will destroy him. However, Allen's attack is insufficient, and the Noah awakes and possesses Ticky's body and wrecks havoc until an even stronger exorcist can KO him.
After that, Ticky is tormented by the wound that Allen left him, and it gradually is revealed that Ticky looks identical to the Fourteenth, the Noah that possesses Allen Walker. Ticky also develops a fondness for Allen, either because of their multiple connections (both are card cheating homeless hobos possessed by Noah and thrown to opposite sides of a holy war they don't really care about but were dragged into by family), or because Allen himself is family, or because Ticky has some unknown connection to the Fourteenth. Either way, he risks his life to save Allen, and then lets Allen go after smacking him around with a dose of bald-faced reality.
Personality: Ticky is a really very simple person in very complex packaging. All you need to do to understand him is to realize that he was, most of his life, a wayward homeless boy who saw the world in a black and white way and accepted its flaws. He was not particularly bad, or particularly good, and he decided to enjoy what he enjoyed and not worry about the details. Then something inside him awoke -- quite literally! -- and built upon his vision of reality. The flaws he had accepted were really so much worse, but he had also already accepted them! Humanity was dirty and filthy and unforgivable, but he is a part of humanity. He loved and hated them for their hypocrisy, unreliability, and short sightedness. Every terrible thing he wanted to do, that he suddenly took pleasure in doing, was already justified because he himself is human, and this is what humanity does.
Now, Ticky is a clever and self aware sort of person. His Noah did not turn him completely crazy in an instant, it wore him down. Eventually, Ticky ended up living two lives, both to protect his happiness and his sanity. Thus, he appears as a person with two personalities: in his white life he is a carefree, snarky, yet caring homeless guy who really just wants to live with his friends and make enough money to survive. In his black life, he lives with his family, both fighting in the war and murdering people for fun, and keeping up a front as a charming, eligible young lord. He is smart enough that he learned how to play the part of nobility, he cleans up quite well, and everyone buys it. But it's not his heart: he complains about having to woo women or go to parties, and is usually pretty quick to roll up his collars or let down his hair. He has enough vanity that he likes looking pretty, but he's also comfortable enough that he is probably even happier just hoboing it up.
Anyway, the key here is that Ticky does NOT have split personalities, or identities. He simply is one man who chose to live two different lives in two radically different ways. They are both truly him, though they conflict heavily, and thus his insanity. He knows he can't sustain it forever, and that eventually his darkness will swallow up his light and he will well and truly crack and never look back. But he is crazy, so if a part of him dreads that day, a part of him is also excited about it. A part of him knows that he would genuinely enjoy murdering the people he loves best. He does not admit to being crazy, but inside he knows that's what has happened.
The only problem is? Ticky is a person who accepts fate, he doesn't fight it. If it is the hand he was dealt, he can be anything: homeless street brat, a charming lord, or a crazed and sadistic world destructive villain. No matter how much power he has, and he has quite a lot, he doesn't believe he has the power to choose his own fate. At the same time, he believes he has chosen. This is another 'Ticky believes two conflicting things that makes him crazier' point. But basically: he accepts responsibility for his actions. Even though he will explain away, in a reasonable tone of voice why it made perfect sense for him to rip out your best friend's heart, he doesn't think he is a good guy, he doesn't think he is forgivable, he doesn't use his inhumanity or his hopeless situation to justify his sins. Unlike most of the other Noah, who act as if they are of a different race, and are part of a chosen holy mission, Ticky is well aware they are bad guys doing bad things and he accepts it and is okay with it. At the same time... Ticky, in his heart of hearts, isn't a bad guy. So the fact that he plays that role so casually is a result of the fact that he feels powerless to choose what he is. A crazy ass Noah awoke in him and drastically changed him, he was slotted into the villain side of things, and that's just how it is. Whatever, he's going to have fun with it.
In general interaction, Ticky can slide between derpy, bored, and extremely chill, to straight backed, slick and charming, to absolutely fucking sadistically psychotic all at the drop of a hat. However, his preferred mode is definitely casual and ironic. He doesn't get excited easily, his sense of humor is very dry, his personality is generally amicable, and his emotional spectrum tends to cap at 'annoyed' and 'amused' respectively. That is until he starts doing something he genuinely enjoys, like murdering people, and then he can get very excited and grandiose and sometimes hysterical.
Old Game Info: I apped Ticky at an RP called Sabra la Tau and played him there for roughly two years. Sabra is an RP where all characters start as amnesiacs, and regain their memories through playing games, or in Ticky's case, by serving the amoral 'Judges' who created the games and force the amnesiacs into torturously awful scenarios to regain their memories.
Ticky first arrived on one of the normal teams, and was an ordinary blank, and received the name Slick. He kept that name his entire time there, and it is now how he will introduce himself. Later, when the Judges created a black team called Ophiuchus and filled it with people who would serve them instead of play in games, he switched sides for the creature comforts and general call to be a douchebag.
Because the source of Ticky's insanity was a 'memory' itself, the Noah was not present in Slick's mind for a while, and this allowed him to establish friendships before he became a crazy sadist. Also, since he got the Noah (and his insanity) back in pieces, his support group helped him stay somewhat saneish, and he decided to divorce from the Noah cause (which he never particularly cared about himself), and accepted that the exorcists in Sabra were going to kill his family, and him as well if he didn't take his fate into his own hands.
The prize for 'winning' Sabra la Tau is a wish granted by the Judges. There were many exorcists in Sabra and Slick was the only member of the opposing side. Even if he did wish to destroy humanity, or the Black Order, or do something else suitably villainous, it would have been undone by the dominant number of good guys. And really, Slick never actually wanted to be evil, he just wanted to enjoy 'pleasure', and the Noah made his sense of pleasure rather sadistic. Prior to Sabra, Ticky hated humanity as much as he loved them. He lived a difficult life and was privy to the hypocrisies in humanity. It's not that he was a revolutionary or a higher minded individual, he was just aware that humans were as dirty as the Noah, and so to him it didn't seem like much of a betrayal to join the 'bad guys'. Due to the way he regained memories in Sabra, Slick never fully regained his love OR his hate for humanity, and he was much more focused on his individual relationships and not losing them, as they were his primary source of pleasure. He loved a fellow Ophiuchus named River (TYL!Yamamoto), and Allen Walker, both of whom got to him before his insanity started to settle in, and thus he remained pretty dedicated to them even after he began to lose his mind again.
Ultimately, thanks to the tireless good influences of those around him, Slick used his wish to kill his Noah, but retain his Noah's abilities. He did not wish to undo the effect the Noah had on him, so he still has a dark nature, is pretty sociopathic, a sadist, and is just in general not very mentally stable. But he doesn't have the Noah constantly urging him to be crazier, and he is aware of his own insanity enough to control it if he feels so inclined.
Outward personality wise, Slick is a dry, sardonic, subdued sort of derp. He enjoys harassing people mildly, and often gets caught up in the irony of a situation, but overall he is very chill, and unless he is being sadistic, it's pretty hard to get a strong emotional reaction out of him. He has a very 'seen it all' sort of feel to him, only instead of appearing wise and worldly he just comes off as jaded and bored. He enjoys simple pleasures, like smoking, sex, cards, but everything is a little washed out for him after the high-octane obsessively powerful pleasure of the Noah. The result is that his world is just a little too monochrome now, and it's difficult for him to get invested in much.
On top of that, Slick is very prone to accepting fate. Even after having made his own choices in life (cleaning up his act a bit, killing his Noah), at his core he still feels powerless to determine his own path, and he mostly only does it because the people who love him bother him until he makes good life choices. Which means he sometimes still makes bad life choices, and shrugs it off because whatever, that’s his nature.
Slick is still the great actor that Ticky was, but he no longer brings it out much. Outside of general moodiness, his personality and speech patterns are pretty consistent. He no longer lives a white or black life. Slick has jumbled it all together and more-or-less 'grown up' from that stage of his life, and though the idea is still important to him in memory, it doesn't influence his day-to-day life, and he no longer sees the world in a dichotomy of white and black.
Overall, Slick is even more self aware than Ticky was, as is the result of regaining memories of his insanity while still being sane, and then slowly finding himself going crazy in fractions. He has once again lost most of his sense of morality, though he is still aware that 'bad' and 'good' exist for other people, it's no longer something he will let himself desire, as he doesn't really think he can manage it. A selfish life is much more comfortable to him, though he does consider keeping his friends happy a 'selfish pleasure'. That said, he is still a sadist, and still kind of obsessed with pleasure, so it's pretty easy for him to slide into being a dick, sometimes even abusive, towards those he loves. Part of it is because he doesn't see a problem with threatening to rip out someone's heart if he has no real intention of doing it, and part of it is that he fully realizes that is totally insane he just doesn't always care while he's doing it.
That said, Slick DID choose to abandon the Noah, and did in a way choose to be a 'good guy'. He didn't choose to be 'not crazy' though, so the lines blur. But he would probably help someone in need (and probably also rip the heart out of whoever put them in need to begin with), he probably won't kill anyone who hasn't done anything to deserve it. He will make a genuine effort to live a more-or-less not villainous life, mostly because he decided to/feels like that is his new ‘future’ and he gets oddly dedicated to these ideas.
A rather large change is that his feelings on humanity are no longer a huge sticking point in his character, and he isn’t really invested in humanity as a whole, and mostly cares about his individual relationships. He has also admitted to himself that he is crazy, and actively stays aware of it.
But finally, probably the biggest change is simply the paths they walk. Ticky was headed toward apocalypse, family loyalty, deeper insanity, and death. Slick is on the road to self satisfaction, world saving, less insanity, and a future. (Orr at least he was until he died and now he's back in a silly game...)
Important Sabra Relationships!:
Allen Walker - bff, lover, boyfriend, they had a complex and non-monogamous thing going on. They became friends early on due to the fact that without memories they had pretty similar outlooks on things, and then they both found out they had Noah and could look forward to going crazy, before they realized they were also enemies. In the end Allen was a huge support in Slick maintaining as much of his sanity as he did, however, because of the level of Slick's feelings for him, he also caused several of the cracks in Slick's sanity.
Yamamoto Takeshi (TYL Reborn, named River) - River and Slick were partners on Ophiuchus, meaning they were both midbosses together! After River managing to poke Slick during a particular vulnerable time (I guess I am going to go crazy and start enjoy torturing people, NO I DON'T CARE THAT'S FINE, IT'S COOL, WHATEVER) they became friends and fuck buddies and eventually something more serious than that. River was actually probably the biggest cornerstone to Slick's everything, as UNLIKE Allen Walker, he was pretty much nothing but caring and supportive and accepting and actually unconditional love is pretty great.
Pikachu (...Pokemon) - ...Slick loved Pikachu. He peeled oranges for him and Pikachu nodded seriously while Slick bitched about things, it was a great relationship.
Souma Rin (Fruits Basket) - Slick became very fond of her after he had to take her eyeballs out once and she handled it remarkably well.
Othar (Girl Genius) - One of Slick's earliest relationships. Othar was totally crazy but very caring and supportive and manly and badass and Slick kind of idol worshipped him early on, and later was just extremely fond of him.
Hirohiko (Tenjou Tenge) - A blind member of Ophiuchus who showed up pretty late. Ticky was fond of him and they had an abusive sort of friendship.
Those are the relationships he cares about, there are many others that mostly amounted to 'I picked on them because it was funny'. He would remember their faces, but not their names, or really anything about them other than what they are afraid of.
Was entrance willingly or by force?: Willing... after a lot of sardonic bitchery.
Outside item: A deck of cards.
IC:
P.I
1st Person Sample: [n..note. Ticky would probably EVENTUALLY figure out how to use a text based client. if someone punched him to. or if he was really bored. but for a while he will be super technologically fail. this is an example of a first post...]
what the hell is this
who would actually talk this way
let me guess youre all afraid of seeing each other and losing your precious cards
so this is how you hide? but it seems pretty boring
why dont you just have a nice fight or stay in the safe zones if your that worried
this is a game so at least have some fun
you are already dead anyway whats there to worry about?
P.II
IC Character Survey:
1. Do you have any nicknames, street names, titles, or aliases?
Plenty, but does it really matter now? The only name you need is the one I've given you.
2. What is your full birth name?
Didn't we just go over this? And I doubt I ever have one, you have to have people who care enough to name you for a thing like that.
3. Where do you live?
Here and there. I'm not picky about that sort of thing. A comfortable alleyway is enough for me.
4. Give a two or three word description of yourself.
A bad man.
5. What do you perceive as your greatest strength?
Well... the fact that nothing can touch me unless I allow it to is certainly a boon.
6. What do you perceive as your greatest weakness?
Hmmm... that's a little hard to say. I suppose the obvious answer is 'Innocence', since it can still kill me easier than most things. But I have plenty of flaws, if that's what you're looking for. Still, it's better if you figure it out yourself, you don't want everything to be too easy, do you?
7. Do you have any dreams or ambitions? What are they? If not, why?
I think I've out grown that sort of thing.
8. How would you like to be remembered after your death?
What a silly question. If I am remembered at all it should be as the villain I was, but honestly, most people have their heads so far up their asses they were never even aware. It's fine to be forgotten.
9. If your features were to be destroyed beyond recognition, is there any other way of identifying your body?
...Well. I have some scars.
10. Do you, or did you, have any role models?
...
It's a bit hard to remember that far.
11. How do you generally treat others?
I suppose I'm a jerk. But from me, that is being treated quite well, so they should probably be grateful.
12. Do you trust easily (perhaps too easily) or not?
Worrying about trust or not is for people who worry about the outcomes. I understand, I was there once. But it's not a concern of mine any longer.
13. Do you act differently than you feel (concealing your true thoughts)?
Wouldn't the answer be 'no' either way?
14. What habits would you find most annoying in friends?
Preaching.
15. How do others typically react to you? Why, in your opinion, do they act that way?
That really depends, you know. Obviously people react based on what they see, so it all comes down to what side you show them. I guess you can say people usually react however I expect them to.
16. Do you like food mild or heavily spiced?
I don't care much, as long as it's food.
17. Are there any specific foodstuffs that you find disgusting or refuse to eat?
No. A wealthy man's dog scraps is the poor man's feast, after all.
18. If you have a favorite scent, what is it?
...smoke...?
19. Do you believe in god(s) or not?
Yes. And in my experience they aren't terribly different from humans.
20. Can you kill?
Of course.
-- APP END --