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I must've composed that last one right after waking up.
To be clear, it's not fake enthusiasm, but just forced a bit by overcompensation.
I need to reflect more... here, there, everywhere.
I had really down times, probably back around that last post and for a few trailing weeks. I got out a bit, it was lovely, overwhelming, and... I could do it. Then I came back to one of my favorites, hunkered down for slightly more than a week, and then got sick for slightly more than a week. Hard to pick up that progress I made about 3 weeks ago.
I kinda ran away from rebuilding a connection. I never kept up with the momentum, just a slight presence. Slight, I'm just so slight.
I need to ask people to help me be human again.
Also, super frustrated with my inability to have sex dreams. I have had less inhibitions in my waking life than I do in my dreams. WTF.
To be clear, it's not fake enthusiasm, but just forced a bit by overcompensation.
I need to reflect more... here, there, everywhere.
I had really down times, probably back around that last post and for a few trailing weeks. I got out a bit, it was lovely, overwhelming, and... I could do it. Then I came back to one of my favorites, hunkered down for slightly more than a week, and then got sick for slightly more than a week. Hard to pick up that progress I made about 3 weeks ago.
I kinda ran away from rebuilding a connection. I never kept up with the momentum, just a slight presence. Slight, I'm just so slight.
I need to ask people to help me be human again.
Also, super frustrated with my inability to have sex dreams. I have had less inhibitions in my waking life than I do in my dreams. WTF.