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I went to Madi's wake today and it was open casket which scared the hell out of me. Seeing her lying there... omg I can't think about it. It looked nothing like her. Her face was swollen and her head was all in a weird position and even though she looked perfectly smooth and blemish free, it just wasn't Madison. I gave Lexi a big hug and then I started crying a lot. She seems to be doing really well but her aunt said no, she is not doing fine at all and she is taking it harder than anyone. I don't blame her AT ALL but damn she is doing a good job hiding it and staying strong. Madison was so beautiful and way too young to die. The whole time I was just like "WHAT THE HELL?" That's all I can think. My heart goes out to her whole family, I can't imagine the pain they must be feeling.