matty
i still miss you so much. back when we were still talking you were supposed to be here today. It's been 3 months sunday since I seen you last. I miss you so much.
ok
i talked to someone who is a mental health professional and i am glad to know that all my annoyance/ sadness is not unfound. I am perfectly justifiable for all my issues. feels better to have a professional person tell you you're ok. i just need to work on me is all. i have to make myself happy. i was getting better at that honestly but being ripped apart from my best friend ever made that hard. matt. she kinda explained to me other than me being mean why he probably doesnt wanna talk to me anymore.
umm i hope this isnt the bacardi talking....
i won an award at work today *w00t* certificate of excellence, cuz well... DUH.
public recognition
and of course Lori my friend at work, she did this twice in 2 days... she's like "YAY SEXY" in front of everyone. That's what she calls me as a joke. She did that Wednesday too. Maybe it's just irony.
i have to work some tomorrow ewwwy
i miss my matt so very much. just that there is no one like him in this whole world. it's not that we had a perfect relationship cuz we fought sometimes just like everyone else does but he just had something about him that was irreplacable in my heart
alandre's been sick today. he went to bed at like 6:30. poor munchkin. after work i'm off to buy halloween costumes. joyous.
ok
i talked to someone who is a mental health professional and i am glad to know that all my annoyance/ sadness is not unfound. I am perfectly justifiable for all my issues. feels better to have a professional person tell you you're ok. i just need to work on me is all. i have to make myself happy. i was getting better at that honestly but being ripped apart from my best friend ever made that hard. matt. she kinda explained to me other than me being mean why he probably doesnt wanna talk to me anymore.
umm i hope this isnt the bacardi talking....
i won an award at work today *w00t* certificate of excellence, cuz well... DUH.
public recognition
and of course Lori my friend at work, she did this twice in 2 days... she's like "YAY SEXY" in front of everyone. That's what she calls me as a joke. She did that Wednesday too. Maybe it's just irony.
i have to work some tomorrow ewwwy
i miss my matt so very much. just that there is no one like him in this whole world. it's not that we had a perfect relationship cuz we fought sometimes just like everyone else does but he just had something about him that was irreplacable in my heart
alandre's been sick today. he went to bed at like 6:30. poor munchkin. after work i'm off to buy halloween costumes. joyous.