Bad Choices/Confused Minds
Sooo I broke up with Clark last Wednesday. I think that I made the wrong choice. I'm realizing he's a great guy. He cares alot about me. I care a lot about him. He treated me right. Why shouldn't I like him? I can't tell him what I think because he probably won't believe me because I told him that I didn't like him as much as I could. I think that I did like him alot. I think it's the thing "You don't realize what you have till it's gone." I mean he's like my best friend. I've pretty much told him everything and still do. We still talk on the phone on a regular basis and I think that's makin me like him more. But I love talkin to him. I don't know I'm screwed right now!!!! Every freakin night I've been crying. Every night it's been for a different reason. Today at lunch I got more crap from my mom and granny and now my little sister. I hate my stupid life right now! I mean it sounds depressing and all, but it's just like worse and worse everyday..I just need to get outta my house. I'm pretty much sick of everything in it. Okay soo now I'm sounding depressing. So I'm gunna switch the subject Friday night I went to Alaya's house. We had alotta fun. We went to the park and Krogers and took alotta pictures. I got like 3 1/2 hours of sleep.I got 20 min at 6:40 a.m then at like 7 pm I slept for 2 hours then I fell asleep at like 5:45 p.m till 7 a.m. So it was an interesting day. Like I woke up for church today and my eyes were all puffy and stuff which sucked I had to work nursery with a headache and then I had to come home and clean so I still need sleep. I need help also. I really think something is wrong with me. I think I'm depressed. As bad as that may sound I really do think I am. Of coarse then again a depressed person may not admitt they are depressed. I don't know. Okay I'm gunna go before this gets any worse.bye