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We are closing in on Evoke. Or, as I like to call it, "Next up: 64K PC Intro".
I don't think I've discussed much what I have learned from participating in demo compos, but it's different then what you might think. The technological hurdles are considerable, but they are largely discretionary. You get as much challenge as you sign up for.
The part that this exercises most, for me, is the ability to confront fear. The coding pressure as we finish out the last week of development before the compo is intense, but during this time I must focus, think, and complete the code. Looming over me at all times is fear. Fear of failure, of ridicule, but mostly of my own mediocrity. It is this spectre that I confront when competing in the demoscene. I don't know what to make, but I have to make it. I don't have any artistic taste, but I must make aesthetic choices. When there are other competitors, they are often the best in the world. Can I still operate in the face of certain failure?
Well, that's what I'm practicing doing. They say that willpower follows a strength model (Baumeister, R. F. Vohs, K. D. Tice, D. M. 2007). The way to build it up is to exercise it.
This has been my ten minute break, back to code.
I don't think I've discussed much what I have learned from participating in demo compos, but it's different then what you might think. The technological hurdles are considerable, but they are largely discretionary. You get as much challenge as you sign up for.
The part that this exercises most, for me, is the ability to confront fear. The coding pressure as we finish out the last week of development before the compo is intense, but during this time I must focus, think, and complete the code. Looming over me at all times is fear. Fear of failure, of ridicule, but mostly of my own mediocrity. It is this spectre that I confront when competing in the demoscene. I don't know what to make, but I have to make it. I don't have any artistic taste, but I must make aesthetic choices. When there are other competitors, they are often the best in the world. Can I still operate in the face of certain failure?
Well, that's what I'm practicing doing. They say that willpower follows a strength model (Baumeister, R. F. Vohs, K. D. Tice, D. M. 2007). The way to build it up is to exercise it.
This has been my ten minute break, back to code.