Something has got to change.

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I don't know why I can't seem to get motivated at work. I visit with the patients, but not as much as I should. I do activities and try to get the patients to want to come out to them, but they don't. I feel like all I do for activities is paint blasted birdhouses, because that's what the patients will come out to, but I'm so sick and tired of painting! I feel like I'm not doing enough, so that makes me think my co-workers think the same. Seriously, I don't know how to change my attitude, because it stinks and that's not good. I shouldn't be crabby, that's not really in the job description. I'm not crabby to anyone, I just feel lousy all on my own, but I know it shows. Not good. But I'm thinking it's not just at work where I feel lousy. At home I'm restless, but also unmotivated. Sucks.
I know I need to do better at work and I suck! But seriously, besides one on one visits, I don't know what to do to please the patients. I try to come up with cute crafts or fun games, but they think they're too old for that stuff. I'm starting to run out of ideas and I'm only 3 months into this. Something has to change. My attitude for starters.