Paradox?...
It's funny how...how two things like, exasperation and peace can co-exist at nearly the same time within the human soul...
The reality of this I don't know. I only know that I have (and for the last few molments) experienced something like it. How this duality really works is beyond me. This is not a deconstruction of how it works but an estimate from the outside in...and that's how I feel about now.
But, isnt it strange? How even is it even possible for us to experience two things simultaneously? Or to hear something deep inside (is that the subconcious and/or God's voice?...I won't rehash that debate...) in direct juxtoposition to what I'm thinking or wanting or feeling....
Humans are rather strange creatures....at least, I am.
I'm off to bed, right after completing a long day of talking about caffine, so that I can have enough sleep to be full of energy to make your drink tommorow morning, first thing before you go shopping. [twisted mouth, raised eyebrows, eyes looking to the side...you get the idea.]
OHH, one final note.... I am taking a week of vacation starting about ten days from now. One one many things I have considered doing is spending a day or two or three at some sort of retreat center (loosely defined). I'm thinking the kind of place that offers a bed or a place to pitch a tent, maybe some meals, and seclusion/solitude for....some time to think, to process, to get away from this culture for a breath or two. ..I'm thinking preferably the CT, VT, MA, NY, NH area. Whoever you may be, please do let me know if you know of such a place that you would recomend.
The reality of this I don't know. I only know that I have (and for the last few molments) experienced something like it. How this duality really works is beyond me. This is not a deconstruction of how it works but an estimate from the outside in...and that's how I feel about now.
But, isnt it strange? How even is it even possible for us to experience two things simultaneously? Or to hear something deep inside (is that the subconcious and/or God's voice?...I won't rehash that debate...) in direct juxtoposition to what I'm thinking or wanting or feeling....
Humans are rather strange creatures....at least, I am.
I'm off to bed, right after completing a long day of talking about caffine, so that I can have enough sleep to be full of energy to make your drink tommorow morning, first thing before you go shopping. [twisted mouth, raised eyebrows, eyes looking to the side...you get the idea.]
OHH, one final note.... I am taking a week of vacation starting about ten days from now. One one many things I have considered doing is spending a day or two or three at some sort of retreat center (loosely defined). I'm thinking the kind of place that offers a bed or a place to pitch a tent, maybe some meals, and seclusion/solitude for....some time to think, to process, to get away from this culture for a breath or two. ..I'm thinking preferably the CT, VT, MA, NY, NH area. Whoever you may be, please do let me know if you know of such a place that you would recomend.