its hard

[andjosgra]

its becoming increasing hard to stay in pittsburgh. i dont really understand why completely, its nice to be around my family, my good friends, having people who are truely there for me. but i hate it. it makes me depressed, i feel useless, i feel like im taken for granted, something. i fall back into these patterns, that get me nowhere. i just dont think i fit in here anymore at all. i think there is a really good chance i will be going back to seattle. i miss it, i miss the whole are. i love vancouver. i miss the people. theres an awesome music scene. how can i say no. new york will always be new york... maybe i can move there, or maybe it should just be a place i like to frequent. but i think i need to leave pittsburgh by the end of the month. i might just continue my little vacation, go back to some of those cities i just went to.

i got some awesome pineapple curry earlier tonight. i love thai food.

i need to figure out what i want to do with my hair. as of now im just growing the top kinda, so i can do stuff with it... last time i tried doing this i ended up with a mohawk... but i dont think that will happen again.

the recording is going well so far, one song is done, it rocks... another will be done in a couple days, whenever i get back over there to record. i decided to use the name : StreetSoul ...atleast til i get a band together... then hopefully they will like it. ;-)

ill be putting stuff online once i get a few done.

ahh. its bed time mother fuckers.
word to your dad.