Building a fucking yippidy doo dah cake
So basically im building a FUCKING CAKE.. which i hate.. so
Layer 1- Family FIGHTS OVER THANKSGIVING
Layer 2- Matt stuff from tonight
Icing-My friend cant come for Christmas
Candle 1- Saying im gonna go sit on my roof all night and scream and write.
Candle 2- Feeling like shit cause of my cold
And to top it off
Lighting the Candels- No email or phone call from matt to know he is ok
So basically tonight this guy Matt Brady who means the world to me was talking to me saying how much he truly loved me and stuff... then he continued and said he had to go to "take care of someone for his boss" Me being Andrea was confused and asked what he was atalking about (stupid me) he said he loved me one more time "dont worry me and jake(his friend) have our guns and i promise well be careful" still confused i insisted on asking what the hell was going on He continued " if i get shot or if i get arrested, i will have someone Email you or call you" i got really scared and started asking him what the hell was going on.... when he wouldnt reply to that i said "matt i love you" he said " i know just so you know no matter what happens i love you and im always going to be here for you no matter what" I was so confused i started to cry... He signed off then signed n and said one more thing... ill be gone for about 20 minuets no im updated its been almost ans Hour and a Half... and nothign from him... i got an email and it scared me to look at who it was from.. it was from my friend saying she wont be coming to Ct for Christmas.. So yea basicall i have a whole day and the next few hours to wait and see waht happens.. i cant even write typing is all thats preventing me from killing something or hurling something.. so basically my candles gonna blow.. ive already had an emotional break down tonight after he left i am about to have a fucking panic attack and i realized tonight talking to people i havent sworn this much since bush became president(haha i made a joke) so ive been talking to like 5 people about this and i thank them so much for being there for me and talking to me it means so much to me... So anyways my night has sucked and i havent written this much in such a long time its releving... so anyways Theres not much to say but i can hope for the best and i cab hope hes ok and nothig bad has happend..
Night all
And thanks again to those whove been standing by me to talk
Layer 1- Family FIGHTS OVER THANKSGIVING
Layer 2- Matt stuff from tonight
Icing-My friend cant come for Christmas
Candle 1- Saying im gonna go sit on my roof all night and scream and write.
Candle 2- Feeling like shit cause of my cold
And to top it off
Lighting the Candels- No email or phone call from matt to know he is ok
So basically tonight this guy Matt Brady who means the world to me was talking to me saying how much he truly loved me and stuff... then he continued and said he had to go to "take care of someone for his boss" Me being Andrea was confused and asked what he was atalking about (stupid me) he said he loved me one more time "dont worry me and jake(his friend) have our guns and i promise well be careful" still confused i insisted on asking what the hell was going on He continued " if i get shot or if i get arrested, i will have someone Email you or call you" i got really scared and started asking him what the hell was going on.... when he wouldnt reply to that i said "matt i love you" he said " i know just so you know no matter what happens i love you and im always going to be here for you no matter what" I was so confused i started to cry... He signed off then signed n and said one more thing... ill be gone for about 20 minuets no im updated its been almost ans Hour and a Half... and nothign from him... i got an email and it scared me to look at who it was from.. it was from my friend saying she wont be coming to Ct for Christmas.. So yea basicall i have a whole day and the next few hours to wait and see waht happens.. i cant even write typing is all thats preventing me from killing something or hurling something.. so basically my candles gonna blow.. ive already had an emotional break down tonight after he left i am about to have a fucking panic attack and i realized tonight talking to people i havent sworn this much since bush became president(haha i made a joke) so ive been talking to like 5 people about this and i thank them so much for being there for me and talking to me it means so much to me... So anyways my night has sucked and i havent written this much in such a long time its releving... so anyways Theres not much to say but i can hope for the best and i cab hope hes ok and nothig bad has happend..
Night all
And thanks again to those whove been standing by me to talk