Alone Again, Naturally
It's been nearly a year since I last wrote - what a shame!!!
But my personal life still sucks! Emmet is still in Ft Lauderdale, and the last time I saw him was in May. Our 4th anniversary is on Monday, and it seems that it will be the last one for us. The inevitable is finally upon us...we are going to get a divorce. And even though I know it is for the best, it is totally breaking my heart. And I am in such a funk.....Which is to be expected, I know.
Hurricane Dennis is passing through our area today, so we have gray, rainy, and windy weather. Seems that Sarasota is spared once again of a direct hit from a hurricane - praise God!!
Amber and Victoria are at work right now, and Jason is asleep. Bobby is in Ft Myers, more than likely working right now too. His girlfriend, Brandy is in Montana visiting with her aunt. I have the most wonderful, supportive kids. I feel bad that they have to put up with all my bullshit though. One of these days, things will straighten themselves out. Maybe once Emmet is out of the picture...
Speaking of such, I find it hard to think about my life without him in it. Waiting for his phone calls and his visits. What do I have to look forward to now?
He says he wants to remain in contact, and deep in my heart, I do too. But not right away. I can't stand the thought of hearing him talk about someone he's met or fallen in love with - that would just kill me. I do wish him the best and that he finds someone more suited to him. As for me, I have no desire to be involved with anyone. But I am sure those feelings will pass! All I know for sure is, if I meet another Capricorn, I am going to run for my life!!! Having been married to 2 of them, and failing with both - never again!
In 2 weeks I am driving alone to Arkansas to visit my mother. I am really looking forward to it. Having some time alone with my thoughts on the road trip and then seeing my mother - the most wonderful person I know. I really need to see her. I need that unconditional love that I get from only her. Some things we never outgrow.
Well, I don't know if any of this makes sense, but I am going to close for now.
Thanks for listening...
But my personal life still sucks! Emmet is still in Ft Lauderdale, and the last time I saw him was in May. Our 4th anniversary is on Monday, and it seems that it will be the last one for us. The inevitable is finally upon us...we are going to get a divorce. And even though I know it is for the best, it is totally breaking my heart. And I am in such a funk.....Which is to be expected, I know.
Hurricane Dennis is passing through our area today, so we have gray, rainy, and windy weather. Seems that Sarasota is spared once again of a direct hit from a hurricane - praise God!!
Amber and Victoria are at work right now, and Jason is asleep. Bobby is in Ft Myers, more than likely working right now too. His girlfriend, Brandy is in Montana visiting with her aunt. I have the most wonderful, supportive kids. I feel bad that they have to put up with all my bullshit though. One of these days, things will straighten themselves out. Maybe once Emmet is out of the picture...
Speaking of such, I find it hard to think about my life without him in it. Waiting for his phone calls and his visits. What do I have to look forward to now?
He says he wants to remain in contact, and deep in my heart, I do too. But not right away. I can't stand the thought of hearing him talk about someone he's met or fallen in love with - that would just kill me. I do wish him the best and that he finds someone more suited to him. As for me, I have no desire to be involved with anyone. But I am sure those feelings will pass! All I know for sure is, if I meet another Capricorn, I am going to run for my life!!! Having been married to 2 of them, and failing with both - never again!
In 2 weeks I am driving alone to Arkansas to visit my mother. I am really looking forward to it. Having some time alone with my thoughts on the road trip and then seeing my mother - the most wonderful person I know. I really need to see her. I need that unconditional love that I get from only her. Some things we never outgrow.
Well, I don't know if any of this makes sense, but I am going to close for now.
Thanks for listening...