Happy F*&^%ng New Year!
I haven't written in awhile,due to the fact that I have been sick and that I was trying really hard to be nice to my husband. You will probably mainly see me here when things are going wrong, because I have nowhere else to turn. My kids can only hear so much about my marital woes! I am sure that they are tired of hearing me complain, but never make any changes. Well, it is a new year - a time for new beginnings!
At the stroke of midnight, Emmet and I were sitting on the couch watching Dick Clark and the ball, etc. I asked him for a kiss to bring in the new year. No big deal, right? No, he has to make a comment about not being superstitious about anything! I was like, what? To me, it's tradition to kiss, whoever, to bring in the new year! I mean, everybody does it. The point is, just minutes after midnight, we are arguing! And I thought,oh boy, this must be a sign of the year to come and frankly, it's pretty damned depressing!
Things didn't get out of hand, we mellowed out and he had asked me to drink with him, so, we had a few drinks and I went to bed about 3am. Very late for me!
It is going on 8pm now, and I haven't seen or heard from Emmet since I went to bed last night.
This is getting really really old. His coming and going, whenever he pleases. I am anxious to hear his story about where he has been...
I don't want to live my life like this. I feel like I am wasting my time with this loser. I don't like to call names, but this is so ridiculous!
We have been waiting for his authorization to work permit to be renewed and finally got a letter saying he needs to go get fingerprints to get the card. If it had been me, I would have gone the very next day! He still hasn't gone and it is going on 2 weeks now. So, what will his next excuse be about not working?? He is sick? He does have the Crohn's disease and I think he uses it as an excuse when it is convenient for him. I know it is a serious disease, and I have seen him suffer with it, but God forgive me, he does use it in his favor! We have not had sex since November! Because he says he is not well enough to - but he is well enough to do whatever else he wants to do. And the sad thing is, to be honest, it's not that big of a deal to me, not having sex, because I feel like I am losing feelings for him. It's a sad, sad situation.
But it feels good to get these things off my chest! And whoever is out there reading...please just pray for me. Cuz I need all the help I can get!
This year has got to get better!!!
:)
At the stroke of midnight, Emmet and I were sitting on the couch watching Dick Clark and the ball, etc. I asked him for a kiss to bring in the new year. No big deal, right? No, he has to make a comment about not being superstitious about anything! I was like, what? To me, it's tradition to kiss, whoever, to bring in the new year! I mean, everybody does it. The point is, just minutes after midnight, we are arguing! And I thought,oh boy, this must be a sign of the year to come and frankly, it's pretty damned depressing!
Things didn't get out of hand, we mellowed out and he had asked me to drink with him, so, we had a few drinks and I went to bed about 3am. Very late for me!
It is going on 8pm now, and I haven't seen or heard from Emmet since I went to bed last night.
This is getting really really old. His coming and going, whenever he pleases. I am anxious to hear his story about where he has been...
I don't want to live my life like this. I feel like I am wasting my time with this loser. I don't like to call names, but this is so ridiculous!
We have been waiting for his authorization to work permit to be renewed and finally got a letter saying he needs to go get fingerprints to get the card. If it had been me, I would have gone the very next day! He still hasn't gone and it is going on 2 weeks now. So, what will his next excuse be about not working?? He is sick? He does have the Crohn's disease and I think he uses it as an excuse when it is convenient for him. I know it is a serious disease, and I have seen him suffer with it, but God forgive me, he does use it in his favor! We have not had sex since November! Because he says he is not well enough to - but he is well enough to do whatever else he wants to do. And the sad thing is, to be honest, it's not that big of a deal to me, not having sex, because I feel like I am losing feelings for him. It's a sad, sad situation.
But it feels good to get these things off my chest! And whoever is out there reading...please just pray for me. Cuz I need all the help I can get!
This year has got to get better!!!
:)