Oy Vey or Whatever
Yeah so...dreams suck.
People suck.
What goes around comes around.
Had a bad day yesterday...
Thinking alot about stuff my ex said to me, told me I was, and said I'd be...made me feel like crap.
Stuff he said was like...stuff I'd never even think about even saying to someone I really hated...and I was spose to be someone he cared about.
Just pushes me back a few steps when it comes to mind.
Being called stupid, and worthless...and ugly, and things like slut and whore...yeah so nice.
So I think about all that...and it makes me feel horrible.
And those things don't even begin to explain what all he said to me.
He shattered me in alot of ways as a person...am I ever gonna go back to feeling normal and good about myself even for brief moments?
I've said it before...I'll say it again...I really do hope what goes around, comes around.
The song below reminds me alot of what I went through...good words. Damn good song.
~*~*~*~*~*~*
Send the Pain Below - Chevelle
I liked having hurt,
So send the pain below where I need it,
You used to beg me to take care of things,
And smile at the thought of me failing.
But long before, having hurt,
I'd send the pain below,
I'd send the pain below.
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
You used to run me away,
All while laughing.
Then cry about the fact,
'til I returned.
But long before, having hurt,
I'd send the pain below,
I'd send the pain below.
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating.
I CAN'T FEEL MY CHEST,
Need more, drop down,
Closing in.
I CAN'T FEEL MY CHEST,
Drop down.
I liked, having hurt.
So send the pain below,
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) [I liked]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) [Having hurt]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below.
People suck.
What goes around comes around.
Had a bad day yesterday...
Thinking alot about stuff my ex said to me, told me I was, and said I'd be...made me feel like crap.
Stuff he said was like...stuff I'd never even think about even saying to someone I really hated...and I was spose to be someone he cared about.
Just pushes me back a few steps when it comes to mind.
Being called stupid, and worthless...and ugly, and things like slut and whore...yeah so nice.
So I think about all that...and it makes me feel horrible.
And those things don't even begin to explain what all he said to me.
He shattered me in alot of ways as a person...am I ever gonna go back to feeling normal and good about myself even for brief moments?
I've said it before...I'll say it again...I really do hope what goes around, comes around.
The song below reminds me alot of what I went through...good words. Damn good song.
~*~*~*~*~*~*
Send the Pain Below - Chevelle
I liked having hurt,
So send the pain below where I need it,
You used to beg me to take care of things,
And smile at the thought of me failing.
But long before, having hurt,
I'd send the pain below,
I'd send the pain below.
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
You used to run me away,
All while laughing.
Then cry about the fact,
'til I returned.
But long before, having hurt,
I'd send the pain below,
I'd send the pain below.
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating,
(I'd send the pain below...)
Much like suffocating.
I CAN'T FEEL MY CHEST,
Need more, drop down,
Closing in.
I CAN'T FEEL MY CHEST,
Drop down.
I liked, having hurt.
So send the pain below,
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) [I liked]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating) [Having hurt]
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below,
(Much like suffocating)
So send the pain below.