worn me down
How can you tell someone you practically love them and then say the most harmful things imaginable to them? Is it true what they say 'you always hurt the ones you love'? I guess so, I have too much to worry about in my life, I don't need one more complication that only brings me down, constantly makes me feel bad, and keeps me from spending time with my friends. I wish things were different, I wish I wasn't sick of you. I wish you didn't hate everything. I wish I really liked you. I wish you trusted me since I have never done anything to make you think ill of me. I wish I didn't post stupid crap in my livejournal. I wish you had a job so I that I didnt have to worry about money as much. I wish you didn't make me feel fat. I wish you wouldnt try to get me to spend time with your family (I don't even like being with MY family, why the hell would I want to spend time with yours?) I wish I was as emotional as you wish I was. Most of all, I wish we were happy, but it doesn't look like that is going to happen together. I'm sure I'll delete this promptly. It's not really my style. I guess I just needed to vent. Back to trauma center, lives are counting on my, and my Nintendo DS is my new best friend.
p.s. I've been thinking about breaking up with you for awhile now but never did because you were such a good boyfriend.
p.s. I've been thinking about breaking up with you for awhile now but never did because you were such a good boyfriend.