ahhhh
i made it through the toughest time of the year. and all i did was cry ridiculously in front of everyone at a party while black out drunk.. not bad. : ) whenever i go through these slumps i try to find a happy place as soon as possible. i know it won't last forever and that is the key to getting through it all. i am back on top. getting fit for the cruise. every day i realize he is more like me than i initially thought. and it is quite nice to find someone that enjoys different things than me. refreshing. i like it. the only stressful thing left in my life is worrying about my future with compass. laying off 1200 jobs this month. 25 more in tucson. already one person frmo my branch is gone. but i havent been there in 4 days so i am freaking out i will get there and they will tell me to take a hike.
my dream last night, i have to get it out:
i am at a house. not my house. i am visiting a boy i do not know in real life and i have anthonys dog wasabi with me. all the sudden these guys rampage the house and steal wasabi. then we are running through a field and come to an opening. there are 10 or os guys and all the sudden i have some people appear. anthony and his cousin are the only ones i can make out initially. i have a homemade rifle made of a lead pipe.we are in a shoot out and actually having fun. we are all laughing as if it wasn real. hen we circle back because anthony has to make a flight and i got shot in the arm. anthony comes to check on it and squeeze my arm ever so lighly a few different ways, i feel a pinch, and the bullet pops out
my dream last night, i have to get it out:
i am at a house. not my house. i am visiting a boy i do not know in real life and i have anthonys dog wasabi with me. all the sudden these guys rampage the house and steal wasabi. then we are running through a field and come to an opening. there are 10 or os guys and all the sudden i have some people appear. anthony and his cousin are the only ones i can make out initially. i have a homemade rifle made of a lead pipe.we are in a shoot out and actually having fun. we are all laughing as if it wasn real. hen we circle back because anthony has to make a flight and i got shot in the arm. anthony comes to check on it and squeeze my arm ever so lighly a few different ways, i feel a pinch, and the bullet pops out