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[andhereidreamt]

i feel like i am never going to graduate from school. i just keep going and going but feel like i am getting nowhere because of how little progress i have made. i am hoping to be done in the next two years.. which proves i did nothing with my first 2 years in college since i should be graduating this year. i am worried because i have heard from various people that the business school at u of a is highly competitive and hard to get into. now i dont have the best track record with college, but i have definitely been picking up the slack. i have to get my gpa up to get over to u of a and i am just worried i will be working towards all this and will get turned away. what the fuck will i do if i get rejected from the business school? ughhhhhhhhhh. i also have to pick up my gpa so i can be eligible for financial aide. i wish i never would have fucked up so bad. i keep trying to move forward and leave the rest behind me but the reprocussions from my previous actions are catching up to me now of all times,.now that i am trying to finish. one exciting thing i did was pay off my credit card. so i am proud of myself for that. although that has nothing to do with school. i am working hard to be responsible and timely and do what i say i am going to do. and making that conscious effort has made a huge difference. i haven't really been going out lately. i'm afraid i have turned into a bit of a homebody since the semester started.
my goals for this year:
raise my gpa and transfer to the u of a
apply to business school
get promoted at work

even if life sounds a little bleak, that couldnt be furthest from the truth! i am in an exciting, happy place and am very much looking forward to what is to come. hopefully taking care of all the negative stuff in my life and adressing my issues this year will pave a path for success next year and in the years to come.