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ahh i really should write in here more.. i started reading through some of my old posts.. man am i a trip.. one day happy one day devastatingly sad. i knew i had a tought year or 2 but damn. still getting used to using a mac.. fuck chainsaw is biting my feet! shes a bitch sometimes but i lurve her. still debating new york.. sarah ashley and scott are moving my august.. i dont know how i could be ready by then.. i am supposed to go get a new car next week but they are saying if i am moving what would be the point of a new car? and that makes sense. i could sell this hunka junk for 5-6 k. get the new altima for about 11 with my dads hook ups. thats only another 5k. not a bad deal for a new car! but the ill have insurance to pay.. grossss. so many bills! 2 weeks! 2 weeks! i am so excited i cold burst. i am totally in love i think. in the gayest way. like other boys dont even impress me. its sad and pathetic. i think about him and smile. it could be the real deal. we'll see how things go.. no pressure is the key.. probably the biggest reason i dont want to move just yet.. ughhh why i am so hopeless. nicole will be moving in december.. maybe ill be ready then? i need some direction! going on my year at the bank already! this is my...7 months going on 8 living in my studio. i love love love living on my own. bahhhhh new york.. the possibilities!!!! oh ps im not sad today. its a good day! im falling into some old habits though.. blah