when i'm alone
i dont like being alone anymore.. i dont like the person i have become.. when i'm with my friends i am me.. the way they usually see me.. when i'm alone.. i'm left to think and die in my thoughts.. my happiness fades away and it doesnt return.... i look in the mirror and i dont want to see who that is, because it's not me.. i dont know who i am anymore.. the me i know wouldnt have done what happened.. i need my happiness back.. but how can i get that?? as i sit here and think of how much of an ass(sorry) i was i just wish it would end.. one way or the other.. i'm tired of this feeling.. y cant it just leave me.. let me be me again.. please.. but as long as people still hold this grudge and continue to remind me of how much of a dick i am i cant be happy.. till this person forgives me for my wrong doing that i have realized.. if u'll excuse me, i think i'm going to go away.. good luck finding me.. if u do, well congrats.. but u wont be able to pull me out of this self dwelled sancuary unless ur the person that i need the forgiveness from.. someone please bring the real me back.. good bye, i'll be dyin alone in my thoughts for awhile.. hope everyone else is happy..