FUCK YOU, PMDD.

[andeesings]

Last month was a REALLY good month for me!!!  VERY little depression, a smattering of mood swings, it was highly manageable.  of course, it makes sense then that this month I was slammed, and of course right before Christmas.

I should've known something was wrong when I wasn't motivated to do ANYTHING this week-  I literally mean motivated to do nothing.  I didn't want to finish my baking, all I wanted to do was sleep.  It got REALLY bad towards Thursday and Friday, when literally all I DID do was sleep (other than go to work).

Now here it is the weekend, I have a million things to do, and what did I do?  Sleep.  Oh, I did bake ONE batch of cookies, but I cried while doing it, for no rational reason.  I'm getting really pissed off for stupid shit (maybe some NOT so stupid shit, in one case) but it's making me go off the deep end.

Also, anything on TV makes me cry.  Loads.

FUCK THIS shit.  Like seriosly??  I feel so trapped by it and my emotions.  I HATE it.  All this, but I STILL refuse to go on fucking anti-depressants full time to treat it.

It just is a shitty time of the year for this to slam me, man.  A really shitty time of the year.