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I've been looking at ecology/conservation internships and jobs, and house prices to get an idea of what it's like to live in these places. In the UK living in the middle of nowhere means a couple of hours on transit to the nearest town. Here, remote is something else. A day's drive, perhaps. No trains, no buses. It's extremely intimidating. So of course I'm having a "what am I doing here???" freak-out. But it'll pass and I'm not going to self-destruct over it. I want a cookie!
Lately I've been feeling a bit better. Company and activity over new year helped. I'm staying in Berkeley and Ben's often out of the house so I have a lot of quiet time. Had a good chat about some stuff in one corner, and a helpful apology in another. I feel optimistic that therapy will help me, and that maybe I won't have to die alone after all. Anyway the world's not ending yet so I'm off to the pub for a not-excessive amount of beer.
Lately I've been feeling a bit better. Company and activity over new year helped. I'm staying in Berkeley and Ben's often out of the house so I have a lot of quiet time. Had a good chat about some stuff in one corner, and a helpful apology in another. I feel optimistic that therapy will help me, and that maybe I won't have to die alone after all. Anyway the world's not ending yet so I'm off to the pub for a not-excessive amount of beer.