in case i owe you an explanation

[and_we_fall]

all of my writing seems to deal in pronouns now. the ambiguous he and the selfish i always seem to correspond in more ways than i would like to admit both always in the lower case because i believe in God and don’t want to disrespect His name and because i believe in myself for some reason and don’t want to jeopardize my future by being too arrogant too pompous too presuming to make the i bigger than the rest of the letters. after all, nothing makes me better than he and this accounts for that. the lower case is just how i think run on sentences and no commas and no quotation marks just an endless stream of consciousness. no question marks because there usually are no answers and no exclamation points because nothing is worth getting excited over any more. no colons or semi colons or dashes because that would suggest that something will follow and i can’t guarantee that any more. some things just are and you have to accept them in that condition. there is no love no hate no remorse no understanding no rhyme no reason no excuse no action no reaction just existence. what we can’t help is the interconnectivity of everything the strings that attach the he to the i and everything in between. if i could draw it out for you it would look like a knotted ball of yarn that i’ve been trying to untangle for the past eighteen years.

and that was how i began my story.