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Some days I walk down the same street as I did the day before.
or even maybe a few years back.
It still looks pretty much the same.
I sometimes at night, after these walks
lay in my bed
and contemplate things.
A lot of random things.
You want to sleep beside your other
but theres school the next day.
You wanna find the reasons why you have feelings for someone you can't have.
You don't even want to be with him, what the hell is that?
You also know theres billions more universes besides the one your in.
Thats pretty scarey. Makes you feel like pretty small, doesnt it?
Sometimes it makes everything in life seem quite pointless
school, getting a job
or even something as simple as brushing your teeth
and dieting for your big trip to Florida.
You also question your daily life ( when you come back to the surface)
because the media and government have completely twisted everything
and shit isn't fair.
What about the stars?
your a gemini, maybe an aries, or a leo
you have your little daily horoscope calender
and you read it
religously.
Ever take a step back and say to yourself
"Your an idiot, stop reading made up shit made up as another way to make money"
Like vampires
or even elfs
or fairys.
Fairys are kinda cool.
but stars, they seem so real sometimes, and big.
So today I took a walk on a different road.
It was real bright with lots of green surrounding me.
These colors were vibrant
I mean, when I looked around it was how they describe heaven in books and on T.V.
understanding, limitless beauty.
There were no questions
there were no what ifs
and whys
and whys
and whys.
My insides were warm and I loved myself so much I could feel my arms begin to wrap around my sides.
and I smiled.
Now this is goanan go back and forth.
Your content with your life
then your jealous
You believe in jesus, and then your boyfriend/girlfriend become your jesus
you fall in and out of love
then you've become seperate from your body
and the door to get inside is locked
and that pisses you off.
Like the kind of pissed off where you suddenly wanna
go back to grade school and beat up all the kids who bullied you.
THAT mad. Thats pretty mad if you ask me.
but what if the reality of MY life, should, no matter how many questiosn there are
be based around one saying.
it might be this one
"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change...
Courage to change the things I can
and wisdom to know the difference."
The god being any higher power you believe in
which may include yourself.
or reality in general.
What if the reality of MY life, should, no matter how many questions there are
be based around THAT saying.
Wouldn't that just be a wonderful day?
or even maybe a few years back.
It still looks pretty much the same.
I sometimes at night, after these walks
lay in my bed
and contemplate things.
A lot of random things.
You want to sleep beside your other
but theres school the next day.
You wanna find the reasons why you have feelings for someone you can't have.
You don't even want to be with him, what the hell is that?
You also know theres billions more universes besides the one your in.
Thats pretty scarey. Makes you feel like pretty small, doesnt it?
Sometimes it makes everything in life seem quite pointless
school, getting a job
or even something as simple as brushing your teeth
and dieting for your big trip to Florida.
You also question your daily life ( when you come back to the surface)
because the media and government have completely twisted everything
and shit isn't fair.
What about the stars?
your a gemini, maybe an aries, or a leo
you have your little daily horoscope calender
and you read it
religously.
Ever take a step back and say to yourself
"Your an idiot, stop reading made up shit made up as another way to make money"
Like vampires
or even elfs
or fairys.
Fairys are kinda cool.
but stars, they seem so real sometimes, and big.
So today I took a walk on a different road.
It was real bright with lots of green surrounding me.
These colors were vibrant
I mean, when I looked around it was how they describe heaven in books and on T.V.
understanding, limitless beauty.
There were no questions
there were no what ifs
and whys
and whys
and whys.
My insides were warm and I loved myself so much I could feel my arms begin to wrap around my sides.
and I smiled.
Now this is goanan go back and forth.
Your content with your life
then your jealous
You believe in jesus, and then your boyfriend/girlfriend become your jesus
you fall in and out of love
then you've become seperate from your body
and the door to get inside is locked
and that pisses you off.
Like the kind of pissed off where you suddenly wanna
go back to grade school and beat up all the kids who bullied you.
THAT mad. Thats pretty mad if you ask me.
but what if the reality of MY life, should, no matter how many questiosn there are
be based around one saying.
it might be this one
"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change...
Courage to change the things I can
and wisdom to know the difference."
The god being any higher power you believe in
which may include yourself.
or reality in general.
What if the reality of MY life, should, no matter how many questions there are
be based around THAT saying.
Wouldn't that just be a wonderful day?