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Oh jeez. What a week I've had.
I went to the Crucible audition. Vern didn't even call my name. I asked if I could do tech. She said no. It was lame as balls.
(For those who don't know, Vern isn't letting me do the fall play, Arthur Miller's The Crucible,, because of an agreement her and I had last year that I would end the year academically eligible. I didn't live up to that. She's justified, yes, but I still am unhappy.)
I'm thinking not letting me do tech is a little over the top, but whatever. This predicament is making me lose faith in our drama program, which I really don't want to do. I don't want to be a part of a program that deals more with Vernon's personal self gratification and less to do with her just wanting to create a great product.
She is trying to push that she's a "woman of her word"- again, understandable, but lame nonetheless.
I really, really don't want to lose respect for Vern. I like her WAY too much.
Anyways.
Since my old group of friends (Jared, Chase, jacob, and probably more other people that I'm not even aware of) finding out about my sexual orientation, I have heard the following things about myself:
1. Theatre turned me gay.
2. I'm gay for attention.
3. I need to start watching my back.
Okay, here's a little lesson in social acceptance:
The fact that I'm gay and I like theatre are a rather unfortunate coincidence. Neither fact about me have anything to do with each other. Jeez.
And yes, I am somewhat of an attention whore, but not to the point of making up such a story and using it as a front for attention.
And no, I'm not scared of anybody beating me up. If it happens, it happens.
It's just so strange to hear that my old friends can't really accept me when they accepted me somewhat for years. I always felt like the odd one out in the group, so I guess it's not out of the ordinary to be singled out from the rest of them, but I just miss all the innocent and dumb things we used to do together in junior high. Now I hear that their parents are catching them drunk and high, and I'm just completely confused as to where my old friends went. I still remember Collin, Chase and I riding our bikes to Wal-Mart so collin could buy matches to play with, I could buy candy, and Chase could buy whatever Chase wanted to buy that day.
I saw Collin not too long ago and he's so different now I found it hard to tlak to him... that's no shocker, though... I don't have any idea how I could ever talk to those guys again. It'd be nice to see how life is and whatnot, but I'm afraid they think I'm some sort of sexual deviant now, and any contact between me and them would just be incredibly awkward.
I just left Chase a LiveJounal comment, though.
It's smalltalk, but whatever. I'm not in any hurry to become friends with them, by any means. I just kinda feel like there was no closure with our friendship.
We'll see.
I went to the Crucible audition. Vern didn't even call my name. I asked if I could do tech. She said no. It was lame as balls.
(For those who don't know, Vern isn't letting me do the fall play, Arthur Miller's The Crucible,, because of an agreement her and I had last year that I would end the year academically eligible. I didn't live up to that. She's justified, yes, but I still am unhappy.)
I'm thinking not letting me do tech is a little over the top, but whatever. This predicament is making me lose faith in our drama program, which I really don't want to do. I don't want to be a part of a program that deals more with Vernon's personal self gratification and less to do with her just wanting to create a great product.
She is trying to push that she's a "woman of her word"- again, understandable, but lame nonetheless.
I really, really don't want to lose respect for Vern. I like her WAY too much.
Anyways.
Since my old group of friends (Jared, Chase, jacob, and probably more other people that I'm not even aware of) finding out about my sexual orientation, I have heard the following things about myself:
1. Theatre turned me gay.
2. I'm gay for attention.
3. I need to start watching my back.
Okay, here's a little lesson in social acceptance:
The fact that I'm gay and I like theatre are a rather unfortunate coincidence. Neither fact about me have anything to do with each other. Jeez.
And yes, I am somewhat of an attention whore, but not to the point of making up such a story and using it as a front for attention.
And no, I'm not scared of anybody beating me up. If it happens, it happens.
It's just so strange to hear that my old friends can't really accept me when they accepted me somewhat for years. I always felt like the odd one out in the group, so I guess it's not out of the ordinary to be singled out from the rest of them, but I just miss all the innocent and dumb things we used to do together in junior high. Now I hear that their parents are catching them drunk and high, and I'm just completely confused as to where my old friends went. I still remember Collin, Chase and I riding our bikes to Wal-Mart so collin could buy matches to play with, I could buy candy, and Chase could buy whatever Chase wanted to buy that day.
I saw Collin not too long ago and he's so different now I found it hard to tlak to him... that's no shocker, though... I don't have any idea how I could ever talk to those guys again. It'd be nice to see how life is and whatnot, but I'm afraid they think I'm some sort of sexual deviant now, and any contact between me and them would just be incredibly awkward.
I just left Chase a LiveJounal comment, though.
It's smalltalk, but whatever. I'm not in any hurry to become friends with them, by any means. I just kinda feel like there was no closure with our friendship.
We'll see.