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[and_bird]

Its a new year.

I know there are things that need to change and I want to  change.

I want and need to figure things out. I'm just so confused and not sure how I feel at times. I hate getting these feeling of not being happy and not knowing how I feel. These feelings of doubt and not being good enough and letting those I love down. There are so many times when I feel like that but don't feel comfortable talking to people about it. Not even those who I know are there and what to help.

I just don't even know what to think. Sometimes I don't think or feel like we're compatible. I see us around friends and i just kind of feel like the third wheel or just out of place.

I'm not even sure what to do.

I wish i could just figure things out.

I wish I could talk to the one who means the world to be about how I feel and know he could understand but very few do it seems like.

I want to stop over thinking things this year and know who I am, I don't think i do know. And know some of the things I like about myself, he liked too.

comments are welcomed.