human interactions
I realized yesterday that one thing I miss about undergrad is the sense of accountability in the friendships I had there and the level of positive interference we had in each other's lives.
I've been having a little bit of difficulty putting into words exactly what it is I'm feeling.
It isn't as simple as the whole making-decisions-suck thing. Its the feedback. The... help in adjusting thoughts. Its like having an conscience push.
the slight pressure to stick to plans to study or go to the gym. the checking up on some friends to make sure they'd eaten dinner. The feedback in decision making process, the input, the seeing things from different angles, the affirmation. The encouragement to be the best person you can be.
My friendships here are... different. We're less involved in each element of each others lives, our forms of encouragement aren't the same. We don't live our lives as intimately entwined as everyone did at Case. Maybe part of it was the sorority-- living in the house meant there were always voices around, encouraging, talking, asking. Always people asking you to account for how you spent your time-- not judging, really, but curious, and ready to give input. But it couldn't be just the sorority, because Jenny was part of this mindset and interesting way of relating too.
Whatever it was, I miss it.
I've been having a little bit of difficulty putting into words exactly what it is I'm feeling.
It isn't as simple as the whole making-decisions-suck thing. Its the feedback. The... help in adjusting thoughts. Its like having an conscience push.
the slight pressure to stick to plans to study or go to the gym. the checking up on some friends to make sure they'd eaten dinner. The feedback in decision making process, the input, the seeing things from different angles, the affirmation. The encouragement to be the best person you can be.
My friendships here are... different. We're less involved in each element of each others lives, our forms of encouragement aren't the same. We don't live our lives as intimately entwined as everyone did at Case. Maybe part of it was the sorority-- living in the house meant there were always voices around, encouraging, talking, asking. Always people asking you to account for how you spent your time-- not judging, really, but curious, and ready to give input. But it couldn't be just the sorority, because Jenny was part of this mindset and interesting way of relating too.
Whatever it was, I miss it.