Oh this is deep ....
Big changes are hard.... I've never liked them. I noticed in my life I try and hold out as long as possible before making changes... Leaving my first husband took 3 years.. Leaving my last parnter took a year. Leaving my club took a few years to...
If there is a chance it will work I want to try. Alot of people probably don't think that about me. No denying I made mistakes on the way but, at the end of the day it's true.
I have realised that I end up in situations that does not have an easy solution so I spend most of the time trying to fight battles I have no chance of winning... I would rather just shut up and get on with it. But in the end I'm not happy and it's not just about me being happy... It's about me enjoying my life and the boys enjoying theirs. That's all I have ever wanted.
Being on my own has given me that feeling. I can relax and spend time with the boys. I don't have the pressures of trying to keep someone else happy. Maybe I don't belong in a relationship. Maybe I don't have what it takes to be in one. Who knows.
At the end of the day I don't know how much influence I have in my life.. Perhaps none
Happy Birthday Dad... I miss you xxx
If there is a chance it will work I want to try. Alot of people probably don't think that about me. No denying I made mistakes on the way but, at the end of the day it's true.
I have realised that I end up in situations that does not have an easy solution so I spend most of the time trying to fight battles I have no chance of winning... I would rather just shut up and get on with it. But in the end I'm not happy and it's not just about me being happy... It's about me enjoying my life and the boys enjoying theirs. That's all I have ever wanted.
Being on my own has given me that feeling. I can relax and spend time with the boys. I don't have the pressures of trying to keep someone else happy. Maybe I don't belong in a relationship. Maybe I don't have what it takes to be in one. Who knows.
At the end of the day I don't know how much influence I have in my life.. Perhaps none
Happy Birthday Dad... I miss you xxx