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So here I am, sitting in my pitch-black room at 6 in the morning after sleeping for 4 hours. I woke up to the sounds of people talking and laughing in my hallway (or the urge to urinate which I still have not satisfied). I'm just not tired anymore. Too much running through my head.
Tonight I was a terrible night. I learned (from my roomate's girlfriend of all people) that my 'friends' that I live with here don't actually like me at all. They have simply tolerated me because they live with me.
How is this supposed to make me feel? Sad? Depressed? Lonely? Angry? Because I'm feeling a little bit of everything now. What am I supposed to say to them next time I see them? Should I just act natural? or give them the cold shoulder?
I am so alone on this expansive campus now. I have a few friends left, thankfully. But now how can I bring myself to trust anyone? I really liked my roomate. AND his girlfriend. for her to tell me this... I just don't know...
Yeah, my roomate just walked in. I assume they really have no clue how pissed off I am. They'll figure it out soon enough, I'm sure. It's alright. I don't intend to try to sleep until I actually can. I don't know what I will do...
I have left some extenuating circumstances out of this, but my roomates girlfriend wasn't affected by them in anyway. She wasn't even with us. I came back to my dorm around midnight and told her what transpired (basically consists of all my friends ditching me and no one sticking up for me when I needed them to) and she told me that none of them actually like me and just simply put up with me until they can move out. I feel like complete shit now...
What am I supposed to do for the rest of the semester now? We just finished week 3 of 16. 13 more weeks to go. What am I going to do? I suppose I should learn to enjoy being alone...
Tonight I was a terrible night. I learned (from my roomate's girlfriend of all people) that my 'friends' that I live with here don't actually like me at all. They have simply tolerated me because they live with me.
How is this supposed to make me feel? Sad? Depressed? Lonely? Angry? Because I'm feeling a little bit of everything now. What am I supposed to say to them next time I see them? Should I just act natural? or give them the cold shoulder?
I am so alone on this expansive campus now. I have a few friends left, thankfully. But now how can I bring myself to trust anyone? I really liked my roomate. AND his girlfriend. for her to tell me this... I just don't know...
Yeah, my roomate just walked in. I assume they really have no clue how pissed off I am. They'll figure it out soon enough, I'm sure. It's alright. I don't intend to try to sleep until I actually can. I don't know what I will do...
I have left some extenuating circumstances out of this, but my roomates girlfriend wasn't affected by them in anyway. She wasn't even with us. I came back to my dorm around midnight and told her what transpired (basically consists of all my friends ditching me and no one sticking up for me when I needed them to) and she told me that none of them actually like me and just simply put up with me until they can move out. I feel like complete shit now...
What am I supposed to do for the rest of the semester now? We just finished week 3 of 16. 13 more weeks to go. What am I going to do? I suppose I should learn to enjoy being alone...