conclusion
Life is weird atm.
I never knew how stressed i was till i got sick last friday after two weeks full of learning and tests. While being sick i knew i couldn’t do anything against being stressed, i couldn’t do anything useful at all. But monday i decided not to be sick anymore and i still felt much to stressed to do anything useful. i kind of had a nervous breakdown yesterday afternoon - i couldn’t control the stress anymore, i didn’t have the slightest control over my feelings either. it felt absolutely horrible, i felt so helpless.
but there's nothing that can top yesterday's stress-level so i'm gonna be alright now.
ps: celya i know you're gonna read this and i dont want you to think that the last days were all horrible. it's just that i tend to jump from very happy so very desperate in milliseconds. what i described above was the despair not the happiness. if i were an objective person i would have to say that monday was all in all a very positive day but i'm not very objective this week.
I never knew how stressed i was till i got sick last friday after two weeks full of learning and tests. While being sick i knew i couldn’t do anything against being stressed, i couldn’t do anything useful at all. But monday i decided not to be sick anymore and i still felt much to stressed to do anything useful. i kind of had a nervous breakdown yesterday afternoon - i couldn’t control the stress anymore, i didn’t have the slightest control over my feelings either. it felt absolutely horrible, i felt so helpless.
but there's nothing that can top yesterday's stress-level so i'm gonna be alright now.
ps: celya i know you're gonna read this and i dont want you to think that the last days were all horrible. it's just that i tend to jump from very happy so very desperate in milliseconds. what i described above was the despair not the happiness. if i were an objective person i would have to say that monday was all in all a very positive day but i'm not very objective this week.