December 15, 2004
Hey everyone, I have to go for a run, so I'll be back in little bit, stay right there. Okay I'm back. So yeah, today at school was okay, I realized that no one really likes me. I'm just an object that all you sick people like to get your amusement out of. Like in....Algebra, when Joey is always like, Dan do this, or Dan do that, and so is Matt Haddad and Luke Kelly. I make them laugh for some reason, so they tell me things to do that they wouldn't dare do, just to get their amusement out of me. Well, not really, but I have noticed that almost everyone only talks to me when I'm being insane. So, maybe I should be insane. No. It's not happening. Not only because of what you people what, It has to be what I want, and I want to leave everything and never come back. I want to be with one person for the rest of my life, right now. No one else. I need to feel secure. To have someone to fall back on. And I don't have that right now. At least not in anyone that lives within an hour of me. I need a shoulder to cry and love on. Anyway, today was fun until 6th period, as usual, when Mrs. Halliday told us we would be reading our previous journals to the class. And considering my entire entry was devoted to my loathing of her and her class, my stomach dropped. The she said we would just be reading it in groups, which made me feel better. Then in art, I got Nate Visser in trouble. I didn't mean to, but I felt bad, because he got sent to the office, because I was pushing his little buttons. I didn't mean to, It's just that it all happened so fast. Then after school I went to the weight room and worked out. Then I went on a cruise with my drivers ed teacher. Then I get home, and what happens. My mom says, "Hey Dan, guess what? I found your phone." I was relaly happy. and rushed to her and gave her a hug. Then she said, "I canceled it right before I found it." I was sad. "You won't have to pay the early termination fee though." "Okay thanks mom", I reply, ever so relieved, because I did not have the money. Then my dad comes home. He says we need to talk about the finances. I say fine. So we talked about five minutes ago, and now I need to pay the cell phone bill, pay for the early termination, pay for the Watchusett season pass. Unfortunately this is going to consume all of my funds for the next few months. Which is aweful. I really hope that all this goes away, and passes quickly, and I can finally do stuff with friends again, because now I have no time.