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Wow I haven't posted in awhile..probably because I was ashamed because I haven't been doing well at all. Today for instance: 1 bag of shocktarts, 3 (VERY BAD)cookies, 1 jello(10 cals), then had dinner with bread and pasta...yeeeeah so I'm not doing well at all and definately gained back everything i lost on the fast. I haven't even been running at all because I just got out of the habit and don't want to start back up. I started dancing at my new Ballet Company and it is reeeally hard. But it's keeping me motivated because on days I have it I don't want to eat because in a leotard you can totally tell if you have a full stomach which is U-G-L-Y. Tomorrow I will be so busy I won't have time to even think about food, so thats good. Today Jeff and I were going to get a snoball and then I decided I didn't want one because he had just gotten done with a fat joke but I was still in line and I go "oh why am I still in line" and get this he goes "well it's natural instinct for fat people to get in a food line"..I was like oh my gosh. I mean of course he was kidding but it still kept me from getting one.so anyways I really want to be skinny for him so he'll be proud of me..haha I know thats gay. Well I'm gonna go do some exercises and drink a bunch of water.