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My fiance landed in the hospital with a BAL of .3
I've been told it is impressive I am still with him. Which is odd, because I never thought of calling it off. Sure, I've wished it wasn't happening. I've thought this wasn't what I signed up for with my young love. I've non idea how one is supposed to deal with the real and present danger of looming alcoholism. I love him. And while I've not promised through thick or thin, I'm in for the thick and the thin. Its not fun, currently. Its not easy. The pace and intensity of worry is making me ill. I am angry that I have to deal with it, nor did I ever imagine I might have to.
But here I am, worrying. Researching AA meetings and how talk about alcoholism. While everyone remarks my devotion is "impressive".
I've been told it is impressive I am still with him. Which is odd, because I never thought of calling it off. Sure, I've wished it wasn't happening. I've thought this wasn't what I signed up for with my young love. I've non idea how one is supposed to deal with the real and present danger of looming alcoholism. I love him. And while I've not promised through thick or thin, I'm in for the thick and the thin. Its not fun, currently. Its not easy. The pace and intensity of worry is making me ill. I am angry that I have to deal with it, nor did I ever imagine I might have to.
But here I am, worrying. Researching AA meetings and how talk about alcoholism. While everyone remarks my devotion is "impressive".