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I had been meaning to post again on lj. I've been using my DeviantArt account as a journal since I don't post frequently enough for LJ anymore. I just hoped the next time I found it necessary to post it would be about something awesome, but not today. I just need to write something about this morning. My mom woke me up at around 7 am (I;d only been asleep for a little over 2 hours) and told me that our oldest cat had died. I burst into tears, of course. We talked/cried over it for 20-30 minutes. I asked her if she was sure that he was dead. He's 15 or 16 (can't remember 100%) so he's played possum before. She said she was sure and we talked some more. At around 7:40 something my father comes in. He'd put Dac in a blanket and set him in a shoe box so he could bury him. For some reason both mom and I told Dad not to bury him for awhile or sit him outside in the cold. So he put him in the garage where it's heated. He came in with him and said that he was alive, that he had meowed weakly and crawled out of the box somehow. Count Dacula rises from his coffin. >_> How ironic.
As of 2:55 he's still alive, but in renal failure. He's gone blind in his other eye now and has lost all his body weight. He had this big bloated stomach and it's completely gone and all that's left is just loose skin. He can barely move and he's peeing all over himself. This is only the second animal that we've been unable to put to sleep to ease their way. The first was a cat of mine that dad had to shoot because she was suffering SO much. It was sunday and no vets were open. Today it's a little different of a scenario. It's Sunday again, which means we can't take him in to make it easier. We don't have the money for it anyway. I don't think he's in any pain. It says with renal failure it's usually a slight discomfort. But it bothers me. I've never watched an animal die, not like this, and not my own. For some reason it's harder than watching most people die for me. You feel so helpless and you don't know what will make things easier on them. ::sigh:: At least I'm emotionally prepared for it now after this morning. I just had to vent...
As of 2:55 he's still alive, but in renal failure. He's gone blind in his other eye now and has lost all his body weight. He had this big bloated stomach and it's completely gone and all that's left is just loose skin. He can barely move and he's peeing all over himself. This is only the second animal that we've been unable to put to sleep to ease their way. The first was a cat of mine that dad had to shoot because she was suffering SO much. It was sunday and no vets were open. Today it's a little different of a scenario. It's Sunday again, which means we can't take him in to make it easier. We don't have the money for it anyway. I don't think he's in any pain. It says with renal failure it's usually a slight discomfort. But it bothers me. I've never watched an animal die, not like this, and not my own. For some reason it's harder than watching most people die for me. You feel so helpless and you don't know what will make things easier on them. ::sigh:: At least I'm emotionally prepared for it now after this morning. I just had to vent...