Calm the nerves
So these past few days I feel like I've just kind of let go of anything that didn't matter to me.
I haven't had any distractions much.
I've had a lot of pretty raw emotion moments, I basically forfeited to my feelings which I hate doing but I couldn't help it.
I never thought one single person could effect me so much and have that effect on how I'm feeling. But I guess I didnt know much.
I recently have visited California for a week.
Not much to say about it, I walked my dog, Spike.
One night around midnight, walking down the quiet main street in a teeshirt and shorts, looking at the empty asphalt to the right of me and the stars up above.
I appreciated it so much. It seems like every time I took Spike out for a walk I ran into somebody I once knew.
I ended up leaving for a light night walk on Thanksgiving.
As much as it was hard I went to meet Travis, as most of you know and a few don't Travis was my boyfriend for 3 years who proposed to me 5 months ago.
It was just a friendly get together.
I've come to be honest and Just accept Travis as someone who once had all of my love and had all of me, yet now may still have my love but certainly not me or my time.
He doesn't hold my thoughts the way he used to, he doesnt affect me the way he used to, I've allowed myself to get over him and move on to something better and healthier, and oh so special.
It feels good to be with someone like Stefan, even though we have had our misfortunate nights in the past.
I've decided to join the Army Reserve when I graduate.
It's not what I want as much as other things, but it will be efficient and leave me time for other things that I want just as much.
I have final exams next Tuesday which has never been exciting for me but hey i have 3 weeks after that until school starts again.
Thank God.
I guess I dont have much to say right now rather then be rambling on so i'll go and right more later
I haven't had any distractions much.
I've had a lot of pretty raw emotion moments, I basically forfeited to my feelings which I hate doing but I couldn't help it.
I never thought one single person could effect me so much and have that effect on how I'm feeling. But I guess I didnt know much.
I recently have visited California for a week.
Not much to say about it, I walked my dog, Spike.
One night around midnight, walking down the quiet main street in a teeshirt and shorts, looking at the empty asphalt to the right of me and the stars up above.
I appreciated it so much. It seems like every time I took Spike out for a walk I ran into somebody I once knew.
I ended up leaving for a light night walk on Thanksgiving.
As much as it was hard I went to meet Travis, as most of you know and a few don't Travis was my boyfriend for 3 years who proposed to me 5 months ago.
It was just a friendly get together.
I've come to be honest and Just accept Travis as someone who once had all of my love and had all of me, yet now may still have my love but certainly not me or my time.
He doesn't hold my thoughts the way he used to, he doesnt affect me the way he used to, I've allowed myself to get over him and move on to something better and healthier, and oh so special.
It feels good to be with someone like Stefan, even though we have had our misfortunate nights in the past.
I've decided to join the Army Reserve when I graduate.
It's not what I want as much as other things, but it will be efficient and leave me time for other things that I want just as much.
I have final exams next Tuesday which has never been exciting for me but hey i have 3 weeks after that until school starts again.
Thank God.
I guess I dont have much to say right now rather then be rambling on so i'll go and right more later