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I found out from my friend yesterday that her husband's cancer came back. He's been battling terminal lung cancer for the last couple of years, and had been in remission for a while, the last few months at least. Since before I was diagnosed. Her email yesterday hit me hard. I hope things work out OK for them.
It also, of course, brought up all my fears that once this is over, my own cancer will come back. It's not the same as terminal lung cancer, there are still other treatment options for lymphoma, but I don't want to have to go through them. I'm not sure I'm strong enough. I don't know how my friends are, how my friend is strong enough to be going through years and years of treatment only to have it come back. My thoughts are with them right now.
I'm trying to stay positive despite my fears and this news. I'm rereading the Twilight series in preperation for when Breaking Dawn shows up on my doorstep. I'm also planning on grocery shopping with Ian tomorrow and buying a new vacuum cleaner. Ian killed our current (almost brand new) one by running over a cat toy with it. Saben (the cat) look particularly pleased with himself... I know these are really small things, but I look forward to them now. Simple things bring me happiness, like going to Trader Joes or checking books out at the library. I have to conserve my energy now, so small things are what I look foward to.
It also, of course, brought up all my fears that once this is over, my own cancer will come back. It's not the same as terminal lung cancer, there are still other treatment options for lymphoma, but I don't want to have to go through them. I'm not sure I'm strong enough. I don't know how my friends are, how my friend is strong enough to be going through years and years of treatment only to have it come back. My thoughts are with them right now.
I'm trying to stay positive despite my fears and this news. I'm rereading the Twilight series in preperation for when Breaking Dawn shows up on my doorstep. I'm also planning on grocery shopping with Ian tomorrow and buying a new vacuum cleaner. Ian killed our current (almost brand new) one by running over a cat toy with it. Saben (the cat) look particularly pleased with himself... I know these are really small things, but I look forward to them now. Simple things bring me happiness, like going to Trader Joes or checking books out at the library. I have to conserve my energy now, so small things are what I look foward to.