Hello and welcome....
Hello and Welcome to the weirdness that is my life.
I'm an odd kid. I know this. The problem is, I don't know how odd I am in comparison with others. I mean, how many degrees of weirdness can I get along with, and how many others are compatible with my degree of weirdness?
I went to a meeting today for the College of St. Felix, which is the medieval arts group on campus. They seem like a fun bunch, but very... weird. I have no problem with weird, being very odd myself, but maybe it's just too... weird. I don't want to get involved only to find out I really can't connect with them. Hell, maybe I'm just a snob.
And I'm afraid that I'm not smart enough for the 109 Honors English course. Sure I'm a good writer, but being out of practice, and reading their papers... I'm afraid that I shouldn't be in that class. I just don't think that deeply. Since going to Japan, I've been thinking that maybe... maybe I'm just sweet but not very bright. Sure I have a great memory and book smart, but bright... I'm starting to doubt it. Like their anaylsis of the works... it's brilliant. And my paper is very different from theirs. I have a feeling I interpreted the stories wrong because my essay... nothing like theirs. Oops. I don't want to fail, I don't want to fail... I feel like emailing the professor and asking him if I should drop the class because I'm not smart enough.
And I went out tonight with the friend I talked about earlier, and she's a really nice girl and we've got so much in common (it's a little freaky how much we think alike), but... it's like her talking and me listening. Maybe that'll change soon. I've got to start talking too. >.<