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I had this dream tonight... I think it have to do with the fact that I found out yesterday that my ex got really good grades, which made me really happy. You see, he wants to be a surgeon, and well... You need good grades. Obviously. I got really happy anyway, for his sake. But, it kinda got me thinking of the fact that i really loved him at first. Of course, he was an ass in the end. I don't think he meant to, since he treated everybody the same. But it's the bad part that I remember the most. Which is sad because the last couple of months (at least) I've only heard of bad love, bad relationships and sucky stuff. But I started to remember the nice thing about love.
Anyway, I had a dream last night as I told you. It started on a train, where I was chatting with some guys from Vaxholm, especielly one of them. He wasn't really cool, quite normal clothing and yeah, you know. Normal. But he was awfully cute, we had fun and all of that. Somehow (i don't really remember how) we became a couple quite soon. We arrived in Eskilstuna (were my ex lives) and we were running around, acting like total lovebirds and just. Had fun. We were running around in town with his friends, fooling around and he carried me around on his back. Acted like any teenagers you know.
After a while I kind fo remembered why I was there and I left this guy to go home to my ex, to get my stuff and talk. So I did and... For the first time ever Nick really... Talked to me about our relationship. I wish he would've done that for real as well.
But, this dream really got me thinking. Of how fun I used to have with Nick, and that I should stop being such a negative ass and realize that love CAN be nice. Ah well, I'm fine for now. But I gotta admit, it gets a little bit lonely sometimes. I went out with Nick for 1 year and about 4 months? And before that I had a pause for about 4 months between me and my former "girl"friend. (He was a transsexual but a total ass, so he's a BOY >8DD) Anyway, I haven't been single for this long in over 2 years. I barely have any male friends either nowadays, so I think it'll keep on like this for a while... ^^''
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I had this dream tonight... I think it have to do with the fact that I found out yesterday that my ex got really good grades, which made me really happy. You see, he wants to be a surgeon, and well... You need good grades. Obviously. I got really happy anyway, for his sake. But, it kinda got me thinking of the fact that i really loved him at first. Of course, he was an ass in the end. I don't think he meant to, since he treated everybody the same. But it's the bad part that I remember the most. Which is sad because the last couple of months (at least) I've only heard of bad love, bad relationships and sucky stuff. But I started to remember the nice thing about love.
Anyway, I had a dream last night as I told you. It started on a train, where I was chatting with some guys from Vaxholm, especielly one of them. He wasn't really cool, quite normal clothing and yeah, you know. Normal. But he was awfully cute, we had fun and all of that. Somehow (i don't really remember how) we became a couple quite soon. We arrived in Eskilstuna (were my ex lives) and we were running around, acting like total lovebirds and just. Had fun. We were running around in town with his friends, fooling around and he carried me around on his back. Acted like any teenagers you know.
After a while I kind fo remembered why I was there and I left this guy to go home to my ex, to get my stuff and talk. So I did and... For the first time ever Nick really... Talked to me about our relationship. I wish he would've done that for real as well.
But, this dream really got me thinking. Of how fun I used to have with Nick, and that I should stop being such a negative ass and realize that love CAN be nice. Ah well, I'm fine for now. But I gotta admit, it gets a little bit lonely sometimes. I went out with Nick for 1 year and about 4 months? And before that I had a pause for about 4 months between me and my former "girl"friend. (He was a transsexual but a total ass, so he's a BOY >8DD) Anyway, I haven't been single for this long in over 2 years. I barely have any male friends either nowadays, so I think it'll keep on like this for a while... ^^''
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