Auspicious signs
following a trail of treasure to see where I need to go...
meditating and questing for my life purpose this year.
farming. growing food. bees/honey, goats/milk, archery, learning, community, ecosystem, harmony, collaboration, community, giving, gifting, teaching, family, nourishing the soul and restoring the planet.
feeling like little clues are coming my way... honey -- eating it to heal (having a big spoonful in the morning to start the day, it gets me out of bed and ive noticed a pleasant "buzz" after I eat it in my stomach, it's a little euphoric and definitely energizing. also putting it on my face, and already noticing a difference in my skin (it was breaking out on chin/raw/scaling/peeling over the holidays -- frustrated by that but I've noticed it healing with eating more greens, less sugar and restoring balance. but back to honey... my "honey" and his mead-making, connecting back to 2015 when i stumbled on the topic of mead and bees/beekeeping, and how EXCITED I got about it - like really energized like I had stumbled on a gold mine (honey is LIQUID GOLD) -- i felt like i was on a real quest to learn more and now I'm seeing the connection to a life calling perhaps).
what I know is that i'm supposed to do something involving animals in this life.
when I was younger I "collected" rabbits and then I failed and they suffered because of my failing. I never want to commit that atrocity again. but i do think I was trying to "farm" and perhaps I was living out a past scenario of failure/suffering -- I don't know. but maybe it falls in to place later... finding balance. ASKING FOR HELP (i did stuff alone -- sometimes my bff laurin helped, but in general my undertaking failed because i was alone -- parents didnt intervene or help, it was a solo doom operation. For a real farm to function, I'd need to create and rely on a community to ensure thrive and animals getting the best care they could get -- vets, exercise, affection, etc.
Also, i'm having this memory throwback of being a kid and "feeding" honey to bear bear and eating some off the spoon and having this almost spiritual experience -- like holy shit, this is amazing stuff.
I feel that now when eating it -- see above about recent honey ingestion habit and the noticable "buzz."
my man... wanting to build something together.
our bike ride over the weekend and how i see the reinforcement of communication between us. practice, practice.
sunday making food together -- him his chili (letting him have the space to do it as I made veggie tray, feeling happy making food together). getting much better at timelines/planning, adjusting pace to meet in the middle -- honoring each other in that way.
i am a mystic.
meditating and questing for my life purpose this year.
farming. growing food. bees/honey, goats/milk, archery, learning, community, ecosystem, harmony, collaboration, community, giving, gifting, teaching, family, nourishing the soul and restoring the planet.
feeling like little clues are coming my way... honey -- eating it to heal (having a big spoonful in the morning to start the day, it gets me out of bed and ive noticed a pleasant "buzz" after I eat it in my stomach, it's a little euphoric and definitely energizing. also putting it on my face, and already noticing a difference in my skin (it was breaking out on chin/raw/scaling/peeling over the holidays -- frustrated by that but I've noticed it healing with eating more greens, less sugar and restoring balance. but back to honey... my "honey" and his mead-making, connecting back to 2015 when i stumbled on the topic of mead and bees/beekeeping, and how EXCITED I got about it - like really energized like I had stumbled on a gold mine (honey is LIQUID GOLD) -- i felt like i was on a real quest to learn more and now I'm seeing the connection to a life calling perhaps).
what I know is that i'm supposed to do something involving animals in this life.
when I was younger I "collected" rabbits and then I failed and they suffered because of my failing. I never want to commit that atrocity again. but i do think I was trying to "farm" and perhaps I was living out a past scenario of failure/suffering -- I don't know. but maybe it falls in to place later... finding balance. ASKING FOR HELP (i did stuff alone -- sometimes my bff laurin helped, but in general my undertaking failed because i was alone -- parents didnt intervene or help, it was a solo doom operation. For a real farm to function, I'd need to create and rely on a community to ensure thrive and animals getting the best care they could get -- vets, exercise, affection, etc.
Also, i'm having this memory throwback of being a kid and "feeding" honey to bear bear and eating some off the spoon and having this almost spiritual experience -- like holy shit, this is amazing stuff.
I feel that now when eating it -- see above about recent honey ingestion habit and the noticable "buzz."
my man... wanting to build something together.
our bike ride over the weekend and how i see the reinforcement of communication between us. practice, practice.
sunday making food together -- him his chili (letting him have the space to do it as I made veggie tray, feeling happy making food together). getting much better at timelines/planning, adjusting pace to meet in the middle -- honoring each other in that way.
i am a mystic.