Feb 21, 2008 21:49
so i was going to take a crap before and then i got a phone call just as i was in the midst of pulling down my pants
it was melissa, and shes like what are you doing..and im like..taking a shit..and then shes all...i got news
she told me that my good freind lindsays mother passed away....
i knew it was the death call. i could tell by the tone in her voice. i just didnt think it would be her. i mean, shes been sick for a long time, but melissa said she was getting better and then all of a sudden...o man. thats all i could say. ysee, ive known this woman since elementary school days. she always loved me and everytime i saw her she would smile and say i look good or something. she was such a sweet lady.
and when i heard all this news...the only thing i could think about was whats gonna happen to lindsay and especially her little brother.
life sucks hard a lot
and then on top of everything...i was supposed to go up to forestville tomorrow and buy lydia dinner, and then be all romantic, and then saturday i was going to see bedouin soundclash with her in buffalo...and then come back here sunday.
and now, i have no idea what to do or what im doing. and that just hurts. i feel so selfish. i want to do both so bad. i feel if i dont do one, i hurting the other way too much. but i think theres a few ways i can pull off both. it all falls upon when the wake is. wish me luck. and keep valerie in your prayers.
i wish i knew you better
i love you march family.