yea sometimes i just wonder if he will ever realize
yea so i found out my dad relasped and yea not many people get that it still hurts me every time he does ...yea ppl think i don't care about him but i do its just hard me to trust him and yea i may say i hate him but i don't i am just mad....well this time he had my brother and it makes me so afraid bc he has a car and he has my borther in the car and my brother is 5 and he don't understand what being drunk is and to stay out of the car when my dad hads been drinking.....i think my dad is going to die if he doesn't straighten himself out and if he does die it will break my heart....... but he doesn't care about me anymore he doesn't even make a effort to come see me and my sis...... it really hurts that he makes an effort to come see my brother and he could careless about me and my sis ..... i keep praying for him .....i just have to keep telling myslef that i cannot control him and he has to stop on his own....... eveytime i try to talk to him and tell him i feel he says i am putting him through a guilt trip and i am not i am just trying to show him how is drinking effects me and my sis.....but i think he honestly doesn't care .....i don't want to give up on him but i am getting really close and it hurts that i want to give up on him.... that it has come to the point were i am at my breaking point ..... i am so jealous of these people that have dads that care about them and spend time with them and actually have a relationship with them ....i just got to keep praying and ne one who will pray for my dad i greatly apreciate it and thank you!! well yea umm on the good side i am probably going over to Gabby's on firday i am so excited we will actually get to hang out outside of school ....well yea i think that is it again ur prayers for my dad are apreciated and thx for the prayers