out on the parkway.. patently waiting for headlights...
Today had all the makings of a perfect day, nicotine (and I really needed it), chinese food, and it seemed like every rock station was playing Rage Against the Machine.
but no... I'm depressed like woah.
Dan pissed me feel guilty, and he dosent even know.
Mr. Posial has to be the worst teacher in the 1 and a half years I've been in high school.
I burned my forehead with a flatiron this morning.. glad I have my bangs to cover up the mark.
I miss being happy.
This whole life thing keeps getting the best of me.
I'm thinking of looking for a new shrink, someone that I can really talk to.. and not feel like I'm being scared or judged.
I'm also on the fringes of SI.. yet again.
I'm not doing drugs.. for a while.
my judgment gets wayyy too impaired. I get scared of myself.. I never know what I'm going to do...... or not do.
I need to do my homework.
and I'm almost done reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower.
ps- I realized some new things about myself today. I dont feel comfortable with putting them here. I'm sorry.. maybe a friends-only post later if I have the time.
but no... I'm depressed like woah.
Dan pissed me feel guilty, and he dosent even know.
Mr. Posial has to be the worst teacher in the 1 and a half years I've been in high school.
I burned my forehead with a flatiron this morning.. glad I have my bangs to cover up the mark.
I miss being happy.
This whole life thing keeps getting the best of me.
I'm thinking of looking for a new shrink, someone that I can really talk to.. and not feel like I'm being scared or judged.
I'm also on the fringes of SI.. yet again.
I'm not doing drugs.. for a while.
my judgment gets wayyy too impaired. I get scared of myself.. I never know what I'm going to do...... or not do.
I need to do my homework.
and I'm almost done reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower.
ps- I realized some new things about myself today. I dont feel comfortable with putting them here. I'm sorry.. maybe a friends-only post later if I have the time.