Daniel please read
this entry is not going to be poetic or anything that is about love. Its about a broken friendship that ended in the absolute wrong way.. So this one is for you Daniel i did give you this journal address lets see if you actually read this. All i ask is that you respond in an anonymous comment and I don't care how long it takes you to read this and i don't care how long it takes you to respond just please do..
I have tried to text you to try and get closure. It doesnt really bother me that you refuse to talk to me since you obviously cant since you are way to loyal to a person that is poison for you. By poison i mean she is no good for you. shes to concerned with herself that she doesnt care that she is ruining your relationships with your friends and eventually it will be your family. You listen to her way to much and if you havent noticed she hates everyone that takes a little bit of your attention away from her. I realize that you love her but love is blind. I just thought that a friendship of over 8 years would mean a little bit more to you than someone you havent known for long at all... considering that you say you love her after only 2 months of dating her...............
I just thought that our friendship meant more to you than just fuck it.. This is not how friends end things if they are going to end.. this is definitely not the way or reason that a friendship should end... And yes you made your point that your not talking to me since you dont want to talk to me at all. but like i said its not the fact that you wont talk that bothers me its those last words we said to eachother before the silence.. Saying "fuck it" isnt how i wanted this friendship to end if it was ever going to end.. All i ask is that you say something to me. anything or give me an explination or an answer or just poor your heart out or something.. I cant speak for you but i can only assume that this isnt effecting you in anyway possibe. and no not talking to me wont fix anything so dont give me that excuse.. I'm a cancer im ever changing but i am the most loyal person you will ever know and i dont give up on people and i most certainly dont give up on you.. I have all the faith in the world in you but you never see that.. it brakes my heart that it has come to the point that you have no idea what to say to me since i think im pretty easy to talk too but yes i do have my opinions on things and i dont say barely any of them to you since i was trying to help you with your relationship at first with her.. that was a dumb thing on my part if i only knew that she was going to be the one to pull our friendship apart..
One other thing that upsets me is that you said you wanted me to be a bigger part of your life but you push me away and always say fuck it. If you just said that to try and make me feel better i swear to god.. stop leading me to believe one thing when you mean the opposite..
can i just get some answers or something? this isn't going to get better with time if we dont talk. this silence is only going to make me resent you and hate you and grieve you all at the same time..
I have tried to text you to try and get closure. It doesnt really bother me that you refuse to talk to me since you obviously cant since you are way to loyal to a person that is poison for you. By poison i mean she is no good for you. shes to concerned with herself that she doesnt care that she is ruining your relationships with your friends and eventually it will be your family. You listen to her way to much and if you havent noticed she hates everyone that takes a little bit of your attention away from her. I realize that you love her but love is blind. I just thought that a friendship of over 8 years would mean a little bit more to you than someone you havent known for long at all... considering that you say you love her after only 2 months of dating her...............
I just thought that our friendship meant more to you than just fuck it.. This is not how friends end things if they are going to end.. this is definitely not the way or reason that a friendship should end... And yes you made your point that your not talking to me since you dont want to talk to me at all. but like i said its not the fact that you wont talk that bothers me its those last words we said to eachother before the silence.. Saying "fuck it" isnt how i wanted this friendship to end if it was ever going to end.. All i ask is that you say something to me. anything or give me an explination or an answer or just poor your heart out or something.. I cant speak for you but i can only assume that this isnt effecting you in anyway possibe. and no not talking to me wont fix anything so dont give me that excuse.. I'm a cancer im ever changing but i am the most loyal person you will ever know and i dont give up on people and i most certainly dont give up on you.. I have all the faith in the world in you but you never see that.. it brakes my heart that it has come to the point that you have no idea what to say to me since i think im pretty easy to talk too but yes i do have my opinions on things and i dont say barely any of them to you since i was trying to help you with your relationship at first with her.. that was a dumb thing on my part if i only knew that she was going to be the one to pull our friendship apart..
One other thing that upsets me is that you said you wanted me to be a bigger part of your life but you push me away and always say fuck it. If you just said that to try and make me feel better i swear to god.. stop leading me to believe one thing when you mean the opposite..
can i just get some answers or something? this isn't going to get better with time if we dont talk. this silence is only going to make me resent you and hate you and grieve you all at the same time..