wonder

[anarchyashley66]

I often wonder what my life would be like if I never knew you. I wonder what you would look like drenched in sun light or what you smelt like after running around in the rain. I often find myself wondering what it would be like if you hadn’t shown me what real love was.
I often wonder what you would look like after you had just woken up next to me. I wonder what your kisses would have tasted like. I wonder how the moon would look reflecting off your smooth dark skin.

I wonder a lot. It never has done me any good. I still feel the same.
Always longing for something
Longing for those precious moments of bliss
Longing for those simple words
Longing to even feel
To even feel something so great
A great emotion something that is so big it swallows every single one of us whole
Something we all long for but for some of us never get
I have experienced that emotion and it swallowed me whole
I almost drowned
I came up gasping for air
And just like that it was gone..
Taken from me
Taken by a dark driving animal
Taken with a force that could knock anyone off their feet
I did not stumble
I did not fall
I came back
I lived
Survived
I am flourishing
But
I still wonder
And I still pine for everything I could have had but lost