- Hmm? -
Why do i let my emotions get like this, so far out of reach and out of control with who i am, and how i'm feeling. i wish i could be honest with you, and tell you what i think, but somehow in my mind im afraid that when it comes down to it, the past with all its stupid drama means more to you than now. I don't want to think this why but i can't help but believe it, with all this back and forward nosence, i don't know who started it, and i dont care who finishes it, i don't even know why it matters...can't we just burry everything that was and leave it at that. who cares what she is now, or even who you were back then, your both different people, two different lives,schools,relationships,hopes,dreams,needs,and memories..you say to her to look back and find the answers well my dear, theres too sides to each situation and every memory to everyperson is different, the little details always change from mind to mind, and within my own mind i'm locked inside to drive myself insane..to pick at the scab and watch it bleed, hopeing that it will go away but it only gets worse. prehaps if i let myself out and told the truth it would heal whatever is going on that makes you seem so distant...if only i could let myself cry without fear of looking foolish or weak...but then again i look at everything and know that this has nothing to do with me, you both need to figure everything out, and well i hate her for making you feel this way..i hate you for putting this on me, maybe we need to go through this together, but how much longer and you willing to let this ship sink before i drown for you? my biggest fear...just end this shit with her