today wasnt that great
tthis morning chris got mad at me... i walked off on him.... his friends came up and i felt like i was getting in the way ya no its not like he followed me! but like so he came up me when i was with anthony and told me and like *sigh* then jimmie comes up and RIGHT in front of chris tells me and anthony to go out cuz im always flirting with him! im not! anthonys my best friend! but w/e oh and jimmies been bothering me all day cuz he found out im bi and it really hurts. and billy wrote my locker combo on his arm! and was saying it out loud! i hate them! we found out the field trips been cancled in reading then i wrote some poems in science
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Cold merciless showers
running in circles for warmth
heart broken melodys resound
trying to steal all your hurt
unbearible heart break crys out
songs of the weary sung loud
lonely nights once again
with no one to help
hand hangs low by your side
no one to hold it and make it alright
your shadow stands alone
with no one beside it
all alone through the night
no one ot make it all right
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Hold the dark metal heart
cold in your hand
throw it away and make it ok
all will be forgetten
just give it some time
you'll coem to your sences
and end up just fine
don't live in the past
live now while you can
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Then in language arts liesl started crying and like it made me relize how much im still hurting myself. in math i was all pissed and kept talking back to the teacher and yelling t her and then i said hi to mike and he smiled at me and said hi and yay! that made me feel a little better. at lunch jimmie sat with us and was annoying and i seen chris but he sits on the other side of the cafateria so i couldnt say hi or anyhting. during chorus i kept thinking and i kept saying i hope forrest comes in and everytime someone came through the door my heart jumped then when he came it it just stopped. in history i was the only one in my row to get a right answer when we were playing a game... im proud of myself now^_^ but im still depressed. after school we were outside the school and like chris came out and we stood around for a bit but like nothing happened and he left! then we seen forrest and i seen him get in his car and i seen coral! hooray! so i ran up to the car! lol then when they left i wanted to go for a walk and it started pouring but amanda had to stay on school grounds i guess or somthing so she stayed back and i didnt go for my walk! but w/e! blah! so like yeah that all
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Cold merciless showers
running in circles for warmth
heart broken melodys resound
trying to steal all your hurt
unbearible heart break crys out
songs of the weary sung loud
lonely nights once again
with no one to help
hand hangs low by your side
no one to hold it and make it alright
your shadow stands alone
with no one beside it
all alone through the night
no one ot make it all right
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Hold the dark metal heart
cold in your hand
throw it away and make it ok
all will be forgetten
just give it some time
you'll coem to your sences
and end up just fine
don't live in the past
live now while you can
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Then in language arts liesl started crying and like it made me relize how much im still hurting myself. in math i was all pissed and kept talking back to the teacher and yelling t her and then i said hi to mike and he smiled at me and said hi and yay! that made me feel a little better. at lunch jimmie sat with us and was annoying and i seen chris but he sits on the other side of the cafateria so i couldnt say hi or anyhting. during chorus i kept thinking and i kept saying i hope forrest comes in and everytime someone came through the door my heart jumped then when he came it it just stopped. in history i was the only one in my row to get a right answer when we were playing a game... im proud of myself now^_^ but im still depressed. after school we were outside the school and like chris came out and we stood around for a bit but like nothing happened and he left! then we seen forrest and i seen him get in his car and i seen coral! hooray! so i ran up to the car! lol then when they left i wanted to go for a walk and it started pouring but amanda had to stay on school grounds i guess or somthing so she stayed back and i didnt go for my walk! but w/e! blah! so like yeah that all