thats what you get when you let your heart win

[anarchy00]

summer is finally almost over. it's definitely been a trip. so many more ups and downs than i could have imagined. i leave for seattle/canada in a week, then i'm home for 5 days, then i'm off to tallahassee. it's crazy to think that a month from now i'll be living on my own and away from all these people that have shaped the events of my life thus far. i can start feeling the urgence of summer. although some people are still trying to hold on. i've been deeply confused; its been a really hard situation for me. i waited two years to hear the words i finally hear today and i don't even want them. not to mention i can't commit to a thing. i don't want to hurt anyone...but i especially don't want to hurt myself. i'm just trying to make sense of all the things i've been through this summer. i tend to put myself in really shitty relationships, maybe on purpose. and even knowing that person isn't right for me..but i ignore all the terrible things they do and linger on the praiseworthy actions. but its time for a change. i'm just ready to start over i guess. need to let go...



i never meant to brag
but i got him where i wanted him now