what the hell is going on?

[anaprecious]

why do i keep screwing up?
i'm too fucking nice...i let everyone walk over me
i let myself get influenced by others
i know the bad things, yet for some reason i still do them
i knew it was wrong, and it didn't stop me
when the hell am i supposed to grow up?
i feel like a little kid that keeps messing up, keeps touching the stove even though she knows is hot.
i don't get embarrassed anymore, i'm immune to that, i just get up and move on, i forget about it...that's probably why i keep doing stupid shit.
shit...shit...
it takes so much for me to have any progress, yet in one night i fuck up everything, what the hell?
i worry about everyone, but i sometimes forget to worry about me...what about me?