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I'm so tired. Tired of boys and things that don't work and cause me upset. The succession of relationships that have misfired this last year... it makes me wonder as too how truly worthwhile the directions i place my energy are. I always care a lot about people, maybe too much. I'm not close to that many people, so the people I do care about, I do so vehementally. I don't know. I think i deserve to be with someone who cares for me as much as i do for them. How else can a relationship be egalitarian? i know this is all a little vague, but i hardly slept last night, and don't necesserly know what it is i'm trying to say myself. I think i shall just lie here and think and listen too my quiet music.