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it does worry me that my female friends are all occupied with weight, and that it is a preoccupation of my own. i wonder whether this is an accurate reflection of the rest of female kind or if we're just all especially neurotic. it seems kind of like, we equate in our mind a certain physcial build to work towards, and place all our hopes about ourselves and our ability to be happy in this new self that we can become. i have lost weight recently, and i am happy. for now. but even when i was a size 10 i was not truly happy, i was still trying to loose more, i'm not sure if it's ever possible to reach that perfect weight that will make everything ok.
its easier to say.. if i was just a little thinner i would be more beautiful, people would like me more, i would like me more, my life would be under my own control. But really it's just body mass, it's not YOU and no matter how much weight is shed the person you are has not changed and the problems still reside.
But i still want to be thinner
my size 12 trousers are feeling loose and i am liking it.
heh i'm so good at rationally thinking something through, and then discarding what i have deduced.
if i am thinner i wont be happier, but i'll be a skinny depressed person rather than a chubby one.
its easier to say.. if i was just a little thinner i would be more beautiful, people would like me more, i would like me more, my life would be under my own control. But really it's just body mass, it's not YOU and no matter how much weight is shed the person you are has not changed and the problems still reside.
But i still want to be thinner
my size 12 trousers are feeling loose and i am liking it.
heh i'm so good at rationally thinking something through, and then discarding what i have deduced.
if i am thinner i wont be happier, but i'll be a skinny depressed person rather than a chubby one.