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[anappleater]

there are two parties this evening and i choose to stay here. i don't know why.
my brain is so overly analytical, i watch myself, watch other people continuously aware and unable to get lost in a moment in time. i would really like to take ecstasy again, it rid me of this nagging self conciousness
but tonight, weed from my bedroom window, and Hume.
long live the numbing effects of narcotics