stolen from sg journal (again)
today is my birthday. and what am i doing today?
cleaning my house and pulling weeds in my backyard.
everyone i know is either working, at school, or in another province. so this year, most of my actual birthday will be spent alone. which is alright, i suppose. it gives me time to think. time to reflect on the past year and ponder what i might like to do in the coming year.
one idea is to spend the next 6 months or so working and saving up money and then just packing up and leaving somewhere. the boy and i have talked briefly about taking a trip sometime next year. maybe going tree planting next spring, saving up a nice chunk of cash and heading overseas for a while.
but for some reason, i find it hard to think even that far into the future. i don't even know what i'm going to do next week, so it seems almost presumptuous of me to make a plan for next year. especially since i seem to change my mind about as often as i change my panties.
the only goal in my life that has remained constant is fairly simple and pretty lame/sappy.
i want to be loved.
that's it.
go ahead. make fun.
but right now what i would really like is
a cup of very strong coffee
a bowl of fresh fruit.
some nice soft french bread with roasted garlic and brie
and a few pieces of dark chocolate.
pretty simple.
my beloved monster is tough
if she wants she will disrobe you
but if you lay her down for a kiss
her little heart it could explode
-my beloved monster, the eels
cleaning my house and pulling weeds in my backyard.
everyone i know is either working, at school, or in another province. so this year, most of my actual birthday will be spent alone. which is alright, i suppose. it gives me time to think. time to reflect on the past year and ponder what i might like to do in the coming year.
one idea is to spend the next 6 months or so working and saving up money and then just packing up and leaving somewhere. the boy and i have talked briefly about taking a trip sometime next year. maybe going tree planting next spring, saving up a nice chunk of cash and heading overseas for a while.
but for some reason, i find it hard to think even that far into the future. i don't even know what i'm going to do next week, so it seems almost presumptuous of me to make a plan for next year. especially since i seem to change my mind about as often as i change my panties.
the only goal in my life that has remained constant is fairly simple and pretty lame/sappy.
i want to be loved.
that's it.
go ahead. make fun.
but right now what i would really like is
a cup of very strong coffee
a bowl of fresh fruit.
some nice soft french bread with roasted garlic and brie
and a few pieces of dark chocolate.
pretty simple.
my beloved monster is tough
if she wants she will disrobe you
but if you lay her down for a kiss
her little heart it could explode
-my beloved monster, the eels